[xnell]

Just a few weeks ago my aunt (who I was very close to) was killed in a hit and run. To make matters worse she was 6 months pregnant. We were both so excited about it but now I feel like I've had my heart ripped out.

The whole thing is very hard to deal with, and now with the funeral over with I'm expected to get on with my life. I know it isn't healthy to dwell on something I can't control but I can't focus on anything anymore.

I get angry at the smallest things, I have no time for people anymore because they talk about ridiculous things and all I can think about is what I've lost.

I'm not working at the moment either, I was signed off for anxiety before this happened but my line has just run out. The bills are beginning to pile up.

On top of THAT I got rejected from college and with the whole ordeal I've forgotten to take my medication for weeks so my anxiety is through the roof making it difficult for me to talk to my Doctor about this.

I feel so lost right now.

[jelly-bean]

I'm so very sorry for your loss! Grieving is a very important and normal process and it takes some time. You really need to talk to your doctor about this and see what he can do to help you. Maybe you can restart your meds and can you get a new line? Do not be concerned about what other people expect you to do. Concern yourself only with what you need to do to help yourself. Every person grieves in his/her own way and time. You might want to post in the forum for grieving.

[CaptainChaos79]

I would start by getting back on those anxiety meds and maybe talk to your dr about something for depression as well. If you are still dwelling on it so badly it needs addtessed