I am so angry

I hate it when she does it. Redirecting her anger on me like I want it. Like I deserve it.

I got a bit annoyed because my mother did something I didn't want done while making dinner. She can't read minds, so it was whatever. I said that I would find something else, she got pissed and I don't think she understands how truly angry she makes me. It is like the world revolves around her and the only true emotions are her own. I am not allowed to be anything but happy because it puts her in a bad mood. It isn't fair that I cannot voice my opinions or show my emotions. She got angry at me and I just felt rage. The kind that bubbles in your stomach and makes your chest feel odd. After the argument was over, I felt trapped. I wanted to flee from the living room and go to my room, but she would get even more upset and I probably wouldn't eat dinner out of stubbornness. I went downstairs and now I am just typing this and I am angry. I can hear her upstairs and I just want to hurt myself to get this anger to go away. I can't though, I made a promise to someone.

I'm glad to hear that you are honoring your promise not to hurt yourself. You are certainly in a difficult situation. I hope tomorrow is better for you.

I believe it will be. I certainly feel a lot better not that I have had time to cool down. Of course, my mother just made another frustrating comment. I am just letting it go so that I am not unhappy Thank you so much for your words

I think that is what mothers are meant to do.... To royally "p" of their children. It happenes in all families.... Sure know it happenes in mine. I think u did the exact right thing. Take a deeeeeep breathe.... Clear your thoughts and then deal with the issue. Have you confronted your mom with your feelings? I went through the same thing and i confronted my mother... In a very calmly fashion... She was very understanding and now she watches her outbursts and what she says..... Almost like she is analyzing the situation to see if she really needs to act like a major jerk or not. Worked for me... Might help for u. Communication may be the key in this case.