[winterglen]

I wish I had a 100% guarantee that I will never fail, never make a mistake, never say or do the wrong thing, and never embarrass anyone with my stupid emotions.

I wish I had 100% control of every aspect in my life, from every calorie I consume to whether or not I'll have a successful life.

I wish my life were not a rigorously graded test where every grade below 99.99% is an automatic F.

I wish I didn't feel like I had the word "loser" stamped on my forehead, or invite people to bully me because of my ugly looks, my dumb brain, or whatever unwritten rule I broke.

I wish I would never have to hear about how easy I have it, and that I should be more appreciative, and that I need to suffer to "build character", and that the problem with me is that I "think" I'm so wonderful when I clearly am not (which of course people think they need to teach me -- constantly.)

I wish I could feel like the other people I see, laughing and having fun and participating in life. I wish I didn't feel like I am missing out or that I don't understand what everyone else in the world understands.

I wish I could look in the mirror and not see the big, ugly, dopey failure who attracts people -- nice people who treat everyone else kindly -- to bully her.

[jelly-bean]

That's a big list of wishes and i think they are very familiar to all of us. I wish that I could make them all come true for you.

[Maimster123]

I hope you can find encouragement in knowing that you’re not alone in feeling all these things. I feel them also and couldn’t have described it better than this. It’s taken me a very long time just to begin to learn to deal with my emotions and with me, I have to stop and ask myself if it means enough to worry myself about it. No matter how out of control life feels, I have to remember that only I can control how much I let any emotion be bothersome to my day.
Sometimes it’s hard to motivate myself into getting out of bed. Sometimes I really have to be in a giving mood to get it accomplished, but I allow myself to have the days where I mega-fail and spend the rest of the day hibernating in a less stressful way. We deserve to treat ourselves occasionally. It’s good to allow yourself to enjoy recovery from failures as well. I’m not a doc by any means, but I know that ideas are helpful. Take each day as its own and deal with them one at a time. Best wishes for you!

[Lostdeepinspace]

Winter.... That is a very large wish list and sounds a bit negative. Could you please tell us some positive things about you and your life at the moment it would be great to be able to smile with u.