[Steiner of Thule]

Is it just emptiness. Emotions I used to have are just gone. Is it just a part of growing up and being older to become cold and indifferent to everything? People getting hurt and things dying. I don't seem to care and it bewilders me every time. I think to myself

Where are the emotions?

My emotions seem to consist of. Nothing, Jealousy and maybe a bit of depression but not so much as of late. I seem to have a hard time displaying the appropriate emotions. I feel so fake.

I buried a dead baby goat today yet. I was laughing. Laughing and making light of stuff while holding a corpse. I couldn't understand myself. It's not the time to laugh you're not supposed to laugh. I think I was upsetting my dad. I try to stop myself yet- If I am supposed to give someone emotional comfort I can't. Honestly inside I felt like I didn't care. Maybe at one point I would have felt different and more afraid about touching dead bodies but I wasn't today.

Everything is just an act. People who show emotions are just acting.

I don't know.

I think it just startles me to not have the appropriate emotions for situations. That I just seem to not care anymore.

I'm broken.

[CANDC]

Sorry Steiner that you are out of sorts with your emotions.

Sometimes I see friends laughing and it seems to be covering other emotions that they can't find a way to express.

Maybe your dad would tell you how he felt about the goat dying. Can you try bringing the subject up? You could even volunteer that you felt your emotions were inappropriate.

If your dad is not the talking type, do you have a t that you can talk to or an aunt or uncle or grandmother that is very accepting?

Displaying appropriate emotions is a learned skill. If we don't learn it when we are growing up then it must be learned as adults.

It seems more like you have not learned these skills or there may be deeper hurts that the laughing is covering. Sometimes talking to people honestly can produce unexpected results.

[Steiner of Thule]

Originally Posted by CANDC

Sorry Steiner that you are out of sorts with your emotions.

Sometimes I see friends laughing and it seems to be covering other emotions that they can't find a way to express.

Maybe your dad would tell you how he felt about the goat dying. Can you try bringing the subject up? You could even volunteer that you felt your emotions were inappropriate.

If your dad is not the talking type, do you have a t that you can talk to or an aunt or uncle or grandmother that is very accepting?

Displaying appropriate emotions is a learned skill. If we don't learn it when we are growing up then it must be learned as adults.

It seems more like you have not learned these skills or there may be deeper hurts that the laughing is covering. Sometimes talking to people honestly can produce unexpected results.

He's not much for talking about stuff like that. He is also cold to stuff but he is better at acting out emotions unlike me. My grandma doesn't like me and I don't have any aunts or uncles to talk to. No therapist either.

[dfwsteph]

Maybe you've learned to submerge your emotions in an attempt to survive? I only say this because I've done it myself. I got to a point where I was nothing but emotions and in order to survive, I had to do something with them, and so I stuffed them...I observed others doing it.

The thing is they eventually explode...that's what happened to get me into therapy in the first place...so I don't really know...I think we're supposed to learn to express emotions appropriately...how to do that I'm not really sure...