[naturebio]

First of all I'd like to thank everyone for their suggestions during my introductory post on getting over obessive infatuation.
Almost 2 weeks after that many things have changed but sadly my feelings haven't subsided yet. According to the suggestion of one member, I even tried to gauge her feelings via facebook and found out that she has kept me on the lower end of the friend zone ( I'm just another, normal casual friend for her). LOL. So I think the more I become optimistic and try to take it to the other level, the more I'll suffer. And I'm afraid that it's already off the limits ( that I am under a mental crisis)
As I mentioned I am also trying to improve my well-being. I am reading motivational books, I am watching motivational and empowering videos, I am learning music, I am exercising but whatever action I do I link them with her. For example, if I learn music I visualize her getting impressed, if I exercise I visualize her admiring my toned body, in short whenever I do this or that I visualize her being impressed and aroused with my achievement. She was in the last 3 consecutive dreams I have had ( Before that I don't remember dreaming her) and last night I dreamt of her ignoring me .
Once in a while I become strong and remind that my happiness, my pleasures and joys are not dependent on her liking me or not. They're not dependent on her answering my message or not. I recently watched videos and read articles on loving oneself. I've cried like a child -- in fact I cry daily and ask the lord to take it over. I have shared this to no one but a friend of mine during Christmas. She told me to stay in the present moment, avoid passive thinking etc. which I think is not a piece of cake.
I know that time heals but I don't want to forsake my goals, the new energy, the resoultions I have for the new year while healing. It's urgent that I heal. So do you guys think that I need to seek a medical advice? Right now the doctors are on a grève ( strike) here so it's difficult to find a psychologist. But if there's other way that I can pull from within to heal myself I am ready. Please let me know.

[kaliope]

i think finding a counselor when you are able is a good idea to help you learn how to focus on yourself and learn about your own self worth. until then try looking into mindfulness. there is a technique i learned about obsessive thoughts. you visualize a door at the front and back of your mind. the thought comes in the front door, you just acknowledge it long enough to let it flow thru out the back door. you dont dwell on it. you just push it thru out the back door. so anytime you think of her, all you do is push her out the back door. just let her float on thru like a cloud. the more you do it, the easier it gets.