husband is getting tired of my angst

I've been struggling with depression and self-esteem issues all my life. It's been really bad over the last few months, and I have had many, many episodes of breaking down, crying, etc. My husband has been very supportive but now I'm sensing that he is sick of me and my pathetic woe-is-me attitude. He just wants a reasonable, normal wife who doesn't get hysterical at the drop of a hat. I know it's not fair to dump it all on him all the time, but I can't seem to help it when something triggers me, I fall into a pit and can't stop myself. It happened last night again and today he seems distant and annoyed. I kept saying I'm sorry, I'm such a mess and he said, oh stop saying that. This is making me feel worse than ever.

It's very difficult to deal with our own mental health struggles... and it is very hard for a significant other to deal as well. Are you both getting some type of counseling/support? Is anything getting better?

No, I'm not in counseling, although I know it would probably help. I live in a rural area and there aren't any resources nearby. I am very isolated. I'm trying to help myself with books, meditation, EFT, and that sort of thing. I have had some improvement.

Maybe others will chime in as to how they cope that are living under the same type of conditions. It's pretty hard to try and fix it ourselves. I hope things get better very soon.

Thank you brainhi.

You husband sounds a bit immature and with drawn. It is not all your fault.

Thanks for responding, Thunder Bow. I don't blame him. It must be hard to live with someone who is down much of the time, and has frequent episodes of sobbing. A couple of weeks ago he said, I wish I could make you happy. I feel bad for him, I know he wishes he could help me more. I actually had a big breakthrough just yesterday about a huge issue that has been affecting me for several years. I am getting better!

i am also isolated but see a doc and t. i have no friends left in the neighborhood i live in-they all moved away in the past 2 years so im stuck here with my husband and son on literally a dead end street. i tried several hobbies, i can't go anywhere to far because i get seizures, but for some reason i do enjoy being alone alot, probably because i suffer from schitzophrenia and bipolar. i use to feel hopeless but not so much anymore. i like to play piano, knit, and read. i know how you feel about your husband, i wish to God i didn't need mine for every little thing he drives me where i need to go, does housework, cooks etc... but sometimes i can almost tell when its too much for him. i try my best not to be too sad so i don't upset him, but he says its not bothering him, when i know it is. he is a Godsend!!!

avlady, I am glad you aren't feeling so hopeless now, and that you have such a sweet helpful husband! Hobbies are great, too. I paint a lot, and write fiction and I love to read. Reading helps to get me out of my own head.