[Yismymindblank12]

I miss my childhood. I can't go back there, but I want to live in an area that inspired me so much as a boy. I wanted to have a house there and just explore the wilderness alone and be on my own adventures being my inner child again. Reliving what I lost. I've been crying so hard, because I never wanted to go back so bad and never wanted die for it. Being able to see the world at 3 feet all was so amazing.

Feeling that naive feeling again of such adventure. I'd kill myself if that was taken from me by anyone including myself. Man this photo I found and everything I've been feeling. I fear of losing my mom and knowing living in the suburbs just hurts so much. I hate it here. I miss the country so much.
I have an attachment of an area similar to my upbringing. The feelings it gave me are so powerful. I make music about it.

That I've always wanted to run away be a wild boy in the woods living with the creatures protecting the woods. I had many deep soul feelings of finding my love of nature so close. After seeing so much disappear in my life so fast. I need to hold on to it or else I have nothing left. That pain is so powerful.

So hard man I've not cried so hard in so long and I fear of letting my mom know. It's so hard to understand how painful this feels.

[jaofao]

Reliving the past? To think about it, I don't think it's impossible. Be realistic though, as it cannot be exactly the same. Recreate it. Go to the place resembling what's in your memory, and live there. Do things you used to love doing. But be open minded as change is not necessarily a bad thing. Adjust a little bit, meet new people, accept the fact that nothing lasts forever.

There's nothing wrong with loving your inner child, your ideals, beautiful things... Just remember that you're moving forward, and the moment, the future is more important.