[Yismymindblank12]

Maybe I have no motive to live, that's what others put on me. When they do that I'm trapped.
I act out it doesn't help makes it worse. Then the stigma of me doesn't get any better. I wish they see how much they hurt me.

I wish I am free. I get scared looking at the people I want to talk to on my fb messenger, I get beliefs and hard feelings barge in how much they hate me, how much I take up their air they breathe and how much my feelings are nothing.

It's weird, I don't think like this usually, but it shows up and I fear people. I despise people, many days. It makes me not look at myself and many days. I don't want to be around anyone.

I don't know what to think of this.

[CANDC]

Yismymindblank, you sound like you are stuck in the bind we are all in. There are no easy answers. When the thoughts get to be too much I find ways that help me focus on something beside my thoughts.

Like this

Breathing exercise - in normal breath - do not force.
If you are feeling very anxious or angry or just want to calm down, you can try a breathing exercise that takes the attention away from the trigger of anxiety to a simple tool of counting breaths.

Find a comfortable position seated or laying down. Begin to relax your breathing. Silently count 1 on the inhale, and two on the exhale. Then silently count 3 on the inhale and 4 on the exhale. Continue up to 10 or until you lose the count then return to one. No judgement. I sometimes end up at 18 then smile and return to 1. The idea is to focus on the breath and the counting and not get sucked into the anxiety or anger trigger. Also works to quiet the mind.

[Keyslost]

I found the source of this for me is all the people who used to criticize harshly. If only they knew what they did or cared. Hang in there buddy!

[dysphoricspirit]

I am starting to realize that people are a lot more approachable than they seem, sometimes it's just me and my fears that are holding me back. Most people won't judge you, also, you can always make new friends yismymindblank, if the current group of people you know have been harsh to you in the past, you can always try making new friends.

Don't feel the pressure, just saying "hi!", won't upset anyone, and it could lead to friendships. I'm struggling with people too, I just hope this helps, I have made some new friends, and it made me realize that it was me that was holding myself back to a certain extent.

[Yismymindblank12]

Originally Posted by dysphoricspirit

I am starting to realize that people are a lot more approachable than they seem, sometimes it's just me and my fears that are holding me back. Most people won't judge you, also, you can always make new friends yismymindblank, if the current group of people you know have been harsh to you in the past, you can always try making new friends.

Don't feel the pressure, just saying "hi!", won't upset anyone, and it could lead to friendships. I'm struggling with people too, I just hope this helps, I have made some new friends, and it made me realize that it was me that was holding myself back to a certain extent.

That's all I can do. All I run into is people who only care of it's in it for them if they can take something. I hate starting friendships I can't keep them. I can start em, but I don't want them. I just want to stop talking to walls.