bipolar manic episodes not yet diagnosed

Ive recently become aware of mood swings ive been having since age 17 im 30 now...I had a major breakdown when my doctor put me on antdepressants I slept 8 hours in a week I lost hand eye coorddination racing thoughts hearing voices ive quit 3 jobs this year due to what I think rhypomanic break downs or manic I dont know how to tell the difference...I went to the hospital cause I wanted to hurt myself ive been fighting these thoughts for over a year and feel myself breaking down they didnt even let me see a phychiayrist ineed meds but they didnt give a damn and basically told me I was making up my symptoms im very upset because no one ever believes anything I ever say...I atill want to hurt myself but dont want to I dont know how ill make it thro to the end of the month without meds I need help please someone help..sos!!!!

You really need to get into see a psychiatrist and let them know what is going on. They can help get you on the right meds. The longer you go untreated for Mania the worse it will get.

I am so sorry to hear this. I am having a similar issue, and basically my doctor told me today that he thought I was making my symptoms up. (He did all but say the words) Keep fighting, and if they don't believe you soon, then they are neglecting their job. (Well, they already are, clearly)
Hugs.