[jarajaramelon]

everyone hates me and i want to die.
i appreciate help but i feel like a bother to everyone who tries to help me because it's impossible.
my parents and sis think i am an egoistical narcisstic douchebag and i agree with them. im so afraid.

sometimes i wish to do something against my narcism and actually be nice to people but i just regret living my life like this.
i am so emberassed about alot of things.
i can't get them out of my head, and when i accept they are happend, and i can do better next time, there's a crapload of more i need to accept.

[BreakForTheLight]

How can you be selfish and worry about being a bother at the same time? That doesn't add up. Your narcissism??? Why would you think you have that at all?

You're being too hard on yourself. I don't think you are as bad a person as you believe you are!

True douchebags usually don't realize they are douchebags.

[DaveH]

A true narcissist wouldn't be fussed about it. Many of them know full well they are narcissists, and don't care. They certainly don't think of themselves as a "bother," they really do think the world owes them its attention.

[Crazy Hitch]

Jara, I do understand very much when you say it all seems hopeless and why should people bother.

I have been there in the past.

And I know how painful your mindset is right now.

When there just seems to be no hope ....

And I know it's easier said than done when you feel like this ....

But.

Honestly?

I have learnt each and every time, that no matter how much I believe it to be true at the time, things change, and they always do. And it can and will get better. It's hard to see this now. But slowly you will begin to heal your mental health.

It's really important that you practice some self care strategies too, even if you really don't want to, because this will help you reach your overall recovery and help restore your mental health.

Please try and do at least one thing for yourself each day?

Even if it's small.

A hot bath?
A book?
A magazine?
Favourite tv show?
A good movie?
Going for a walk.

Hang in there please. It does get better