Dreading the Diagnosis

So I asked my NP to sent a request over to the lab so I could get some bloodwork done... lately I've been very tired yet cannot sleep at night, weak, feeling cold all the time, very hungry and thirsty, and occasionally lightheaded and/or dizzy to the point of nauseousness. I have no idea what I weigh because the scale terrifies me and the BMI is a crock of **** anyway, but I am scared that I'm starting to gain weight. I have Hashimoto's disease and hypothyroidism, but I am very very scared that the real explanation may be type 2 diabetes. In January of 2014 I was diagnosed with prediabetes, but I worked extremely hard to resolve that, and my A1Cs have been normal for over a year. I still stick to a low-carb low-fat diet and exercise frequently every week. I am NOT diabetic, I CAN'T be diabetic-- NOT after everything I have been through, NOT after going from size 1X to size 4, NOT after working so unbelievably hard. Hell no... I don't know what I will do if I find out I am. I was going to get the bloodwork done tomorrow, but I am absolutely terrified. If I am diabetic I will lose it, completely and totally.

Hey there. I also hope your not diabetic but if you do turn out to be diabetic, then please don't lose the plot. It's not the end of the world but all the same I totally understand how much work you must and have put into, not being diabetic. Even if you are diagnosed then you can still work with your doctor.

I guess, but will the dr work with me is the question-- they are so judgmental and they never seem to listen to their patients. I don't like them and I go see one as rarely as I can get away with. When I last got them checked (in November 2014) the A1c's were still normal, but I don't take anything for granted. My world will collapse and my friends and family will abandon me if they find out, the stigma surrounding diabetes is horrible. But thank you for posting, and I hope I'm not too.

I didn't realize there was a stigma O__o here in the UK i'm sure there isn't but perhaps there is in part of the US?
It's stupid for family and friends to abandon you just because of your condition.

Unfortunately in some parts of the US there is, especially in very health-conscious areas like where I live 😕 since I work in healthcare I see it a lot in medical professionals as well. I hope my friends and family will accept me if my results come back diabetic, because I agree it's stupid to reject someone for that reason, but I'm scared they'll push me away

Are you on any atypical antipsychotics? They can promote weight gain and elevated blood sugars.

Good point, and yes I am on Abilify, which does both of those things

If you by some chance do have diabetes you by no means will always be. Oh course Abilify can cause increase blood sugars, there are numerous other medications you can try instead.

As for family and friends not accepting or being upset... Why would you [I]have[I] to even tell them? It's no ones business.

Hi Christina, yeah I guess you're right that it's no one else's business, it's just that it's always nice to get support, especially in the case of a life-changing diagnosis. Most of my friends and all my family live over 1700 miles away, and I really am lacking in support :-( I have friends out here, but no one I feel close enough with to tell them.