I want to go home

I don't know what to do.

I was looking forward to coming up and visiting my mom and being here for a few weeks. The day I drove up from FL to NC, my mom threw her back out. So she's been recovering from back spasms and isn't really able to do anything.

I brought my two dogs up with me, and one is a puppy who can get rambunctious at times (as puppies do). So I'm always worried about the puppy knocking my mom over or something. Plus the day we got up here, the puppy got into my mom's dog's food, and the puppy has a very sensitive stomach, so she had diarrhea and messed in the house. So I feel guilty about that.

I'm struggling with my anxiety and depression while I'm up here, and I feel like a burden and like I'm in the way. Maybe it was wishful thinking that, even though I suffer from agoraphobia, I would be able to enjoy a long visit like this.

I don't want to upset my mom because I know she'll be sad if I feel like I need to go back home, and I also don't want it to be like "oh, your hurt, bye." I really just feel like we're underfoot and in the way and that makes my anxiety worse, which doesn't need to get worse, and then makes my depression worse, which doesn't need to get worse.

What should I do? I really want to go home, but I really don't want to upset my mom.

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Time to go back home with your dogs in tow.

I would set a date a week or two in advance and tell your mom you're thinking of going home then. That will give you both more time together and maybe an opportunity to do some more talking. Do you have room for your mom to come down and visit you at all? Maybe you can plan another trip for 6 months from now or establish an email or snail mail, phone or online contact habit?

I think if you set a date to go home, it will be easier for you to enjoy the remaining time with your mom.