[Aviza]

Well I've decided he cares little for my feelings, has made it very apparent in how we live, work, etc. I now firmly believe he is a con artist. My best friend looked up his financial background, something she does for her job, which I had no clue she even did. He has 2 embezzlement convictions 2 different states, and possibly a 3rd (the fine he's paying/not paying). Been Verified only showed one, and when I brought it up to him, I got a sob story. Now if Been Verified had brought up both I would have known better, mistakes can happen, but not the same thing twice. After I tried to live a life with him, I saw his way of handling money, it's criminal really. Yes there were red flags, but that's probably where my mental illness comes in to play. I saw them, but was unable to really understand them. My family did see and understood them fully. But instead of treating me like a rational adult, they opted for the talk down method.

I would listen if they treated me fairly, equally, but even my younger brother acts like a parent to me now. My daughter understood it, they don't respect me. She said I need to earn their respect, in actual terms. Really to me, that respect thing was lost when my brain cracked. It will never return. Well now I'm at mom's I feel centered, and am regaining balance. I did ask her to hospitalize me, she instead took time to talk through my thoughts. It really helped. She's being nicer than she has ever been to me. I told her part of why I stayed with him so long, was because I didn't want involve them, I wanted to figure it out on my own.

He really kept me down and out. I could barely function, I didn't even have my basic needs handled properly.

I contacted the University for help in delivering the divorce petition because I do want it done correctly, without mistakes. I cannot deal with him, his mess, his pretending to love me, anymore.

Aviza, we all make mistakes. I understand you wanting to figure things out for yourself. Sometimes we tend to resent what our families try to do for us. As adults we feel it is condescending and get resentful. I am glad that you are at your moms and getting a chance to recuperate. I wish you success. It sounds like you are doing better and i am happy for you. Welcome to PC! tc