[Aviza]

I really cannot believe I deeply fell for a con. No normal man, cuts people out of his life and goes about his day as if all is well. He cuts me, his wife out, all his co-workers have met me. One even said something to me about how he's the problem not his ex's. So a fool from start to finish I was. I've been loved, why was I so susceptible to him?

A mutual friend tried to contact him, he didn't want to believe what I was saying about him. My soon to be ex told him, he knew no one by that name. We've had bbq's together, eaten at their house, and he doesn't know him? Wow, he blocked him off his facebook, minutes after blocked me. A week later I blocked his entire family, those I could, off my facebook.

I have to wait for the divorce. Paperwork is delayed 2 weeks at least, therefore the case hasn't even been considered open yet. Staff shortage I was told. I'm really hurt. I deserve this on some level, I mean I did throw away a descent human being, my daughter's father, because I just wasn't in love with him. I had it all, threw it away. Karma bites.

[shortandcute]

I'm sorry that happened to you. Try not to be too hard on yourself. Be good to yourself.

[emijec]

I'm sorry this happened to you, it's going to get pretty dark for you but that is when you should hold on to someone that has a compassionate ear. There will be days, weeks, where you run this through your head. Some people out there are psychopaths, they have no emotion and just play the part to fool you to get what they want and yes you fell victim. I went through something similar and I ended up getting on medication (celexa & trazodone) to help me function day to day and went to counseling. If you can please do that, if you are fragile like me you'll need help from others. sometimes you can't do it all alone. Reach for help. I made the same mistake twice and am currently depressed b/c its so recent. I've learned that you have to be selective about who you bring into your life no matter how charming or good looking they are, if there's baggage, dont go near. logically that makes sense but emotionally, it will take time to comprehend. go through your motions its ok, but seek help. good luck with everything. i'm rooting for you!

[Aviza]

You know a black cat crossed my path on my way to our first date. I used to think it was poppy cock, not anymore. Today I met with a therapist, going again next week, a white cat and rooster crossed my path (my mom's house in the country). I should look that up. Maybe the rooster means run away from him fast, because it was running from my car fast, and the white cate, well that's promising I'm sure.

I'm also getting in with the psychiatrist in a few weeks, I know I need meds. Went through the bills I had, sorted them, got some ready to be paid when my check comes. I'm feeling good about moving on without him, he's was a dead weight in my life. More like an anchor. Weighed me down so much digging myself out is going to be a challenge.