[sinking]

I'm waiting to die, at my own conditions
But first i have to wait the right conditions to happen
But first i have to create these right conditions and it take times
So i'm still having to wait and live as if i was waiting for nothing
As if i'm planning to live a long happy life
Fake! Liar! Hypocrite!
And i'm still waiting to end the plan project
And wait for the proper time/conditions to happen
I've done all i could
But i'm still here trapped waiting
Waiting
Waiting to die
Waiting to live
Waiting to end life
And i'm tired if waiting. So f???ing tired of waiting...

Anyone esle like me?

[CANDC]

With a taste of dying from old relatives passing on or near death experiences, life can become even more precious.

I find this book by an MD very interesting because it shows how people experience death if only for a little while before they are medically revived. Death is not better than life or less pained, it is another experience of reality. So no hurry for me. Stop and smell the roses on the way.

Here is a free copy of the books if interested.
selfdefinition.org/afterlife/Raymond-Moody-Life-After-Life.pdf

[the sad queen]

same
i hope everything get better for you

Sinking, try living the day by not thinking of what you want to do, rather just be in wonderment of the day, the birds, nature, the smell of fresh coffee and a good meal.
Open your eyes to all the wonderful little things you have around you and in your neighborhood. Going for a walk really clears ones head and is good. Or sitting in a park to watch people is also good.... Life is JUST DO IT... Just look with new eyes and you will be amazed at what you see. For it really is all about our perception of life and what it means to us... blessings