[annabellacat]

This is just a vent. I am tired,angry,and emotional about people making my life more difficult. I am tired of lazy,unambitious people making excuses while I am trying to hurry up and get my things together. I am tired of people being manipulative. I am tired of all that I have given just for when I want something to be dismissed. I have so much to offer and give so much but all people do is use,use,use and then act like they care. Who the heck are they kidding? They are just self involved idiots. And,it's pushing me. Very far. I am have been trying too hard to get my things together. I overcame and have just wanted to move past things and I will not have this be my life. I am not only tempted to run away and leave it all behind,but it's starting to feel more and more like a real possibility. No one believes me but they don't know. I have been mistreated,betrayed,and abused. I just want some ease and appreciation. I have been feeling so drawn towards self destruction because of the pain. I just don't know how people can be so self involved. I am always thinking of others. I have given money,care,advice,and so on.

[annabellacat]

Why are people such users? WHY? I can't take it anymore.

[yagr]

I am sorry you are struggling right now. I can't disagree with much you've written - my personal circle is very, very small. The people in that circle however, when I call them at 3am and say, "I need you now," they don't ask questions, they are on the next plane. And I do the same for them. Anyone else has no place in my life.

Living that way sounds very lonely to most people - but you know, whether my friends are laying next to me in bed or every one of them is ten thousand miles away, I know I'm never alone.

I've offered my daughter just one piece of advice on her friends: Don't make anyone a priority in your life when you're just an option in theirs - anyone.