[beeblove]

I am a food addict and its really hard for me to accept.

They say an alcoholic cant have one sip of a beer.

A smoker cant have a drag of a cig.

A drug addict cant have drugs once etc...

So therefore a food addict can't have any trigger foods.. not once.

And I wan't this to stop controlling me but I don't know if it will.

I don't do drugs. I have in my past, I don't want them and I don't care for them.

I'm not a big drinker.

So I feel like I need something when I need to numb myself.

[Nimportequoi]

Hello beeblove
I have the same issue as you have.
If people tell me, yo, what's the matter, just eat less show discipline, I always feel some kind of despaired helplessness. In general, I guess I don't have a problem with making myself do what I have to. But if I imagine to change my eating habits, I feel like suffocating. It's like saying that staying under water is just a matter of will power. "If your willing enough, you will be able to stay under water for two hours if you want." Everyone can see that this is stupid. And I know I'm being irrational on this thing, but I feel the same with food.
It's like my mind is a vessel, and in it, there's too much unwanted negative emotions. I can't show them on the outside, there's no place to put them. Eating is my relief from that.
Also, I feel I can talk to noone about my eating problem, because noone understands it. With an alcoholician, there's some kind of societal consensus. Most people agree that it's obvious that someone who drinks like five bottles of wine a day most likely will have emotional problems, but with food it's a different thing. The more you eat, the more you indulge yourself. That's the way it is seen. Nobody would say that you "indulge" yourself by drinking five bottles of wine a day. Of course I know there are people who are judgemental towards alcoholicians, obviously. But still, there's also a huge part in the society who doesn't think like that... if you not what I mean. And I don't know, I don't feel like it's the same with eating problems. People seem to view this solely as a matter of will power.
Sorry I know this got a little bit long. Hope you don't mind.

[beeblove]

Originally Posted by Nimportequoi

Hello beeblove
I have the same issue as you have.
If people tell me, yo, what's the matter, just eat less show discipline, I always feel some kind of despaired helplessness. In general, I guess I don't have a problem with making myself do what I have to. But if I imagine to change my eating habits, I feel like suffocating. It's like saying that staying under water is just a matter of will power. "If your willing enough, you will be able to stay under water for two hours if you want." Everyone can see that this is stupid. And I know I'm being irrational on this thing, but I feel the same with food.
It's like my mind is a vessel, and in it, there's too much unwanted negative emotions. I can't show them on the outside, there's no place to put them. Eating is my relief from that.
Also, I feel I can talk to noone about my eating problem, because noone understands it. With an alcoholician, there's some kind of societal consensus. Most people agree that it's obvious that someone who drinks like five bottles of wine a day most likely will have emotional problems, but with food it's a different thing. The more you eat, the more you indulge yourself. That's the way it is seen. Nobody would say that you "indulge" yourself by drinking five bottles of wine a day. Of course I know there are people who are judgemental towards alcoholicians, obviously. But still, there's also a huge part in the society who doesn't think like that... if you not what I mean. And I don't know, I don't feel like it's the same with eating problems. People seem to view this solely as a matter of will power.
Sorry I know this got a little bit long. Hope you don't mind.

Hey!

Thank you!

I know what you mean. The negative emotions, the emptiness, these things can all be temporarily relieved by stuffing my face- feeling good things and silencing my mind. Which is depression and anxiety eliminating right there. Temporarily. But it helps none the less.

Does anyone have any solutions? I already exercise and do yoga and mindful breathing, and pray, and journal, etc.. Maybe just more of these things?

[Melmo]

This is me too. I find I use food like others would use drugs or alcohol, to relieve stress, make you feel happier. I can't stop

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