[boncliffkennels]

Throughout my life I have been hyper sensitive to my surroundings and those in my surroundings. I have always been the one who wants to help others and/or fix the situation at hand. My problem is that I know how to fix others but I have yet figured out how to fix myself. When I was 18 I went into Nursing and also became a EMT just so I could help others. Being in the Medical field I was able to successfully fill that need to help those around me and by doing so I avoided facing my own problems. How do I learn to face my own problems and solve them. I have avoided the truth for far to long and now I seem to be lost and alone. My world seems to be crumbling around me. My health is failing and I don't seem to even care. Many time I think my family would be better off if I just died and left this crazy world.

[Skeezyks]

Hello boncliffkennels: The Skeezyks knows something of this... at least the part about avoiding facing one's problems. I did this for many years... decades really... to the point where it was too late to do anything about any of it.

I don't know how one begins to face their own problems & solve them... other than by making a start somewhere... putting one foot in front of the other, as the saying goes. From my perspective, I think one simply has to commit to a path & follow it one step at a time, without looking too far ahead, & without giving up... no matter how small the progress seems to be... no matter the obstacles... even when at times it seems there is no progress at all. That's the only way I know. There are no hidden secrets.

I think in my case, to some extent, what has happened is I've simply reached an age where it just doesn't matter anymore. I've been on psych med's in the past. Mostly they just made me groggy. I've seen a few different therapists for brief periods. None of them were helpful. At this point, I pretty-much just keep to myself. I simply strive to accept things the way they are. It's too late to change any of it. So, I guess from that perspective, I'm probably not the best person to be replying to your post. But I wish you well with your search.

[BLUEDOVE]

May not sound caring,but first thing is to take responsibility for
dear self; when you do that,you take your own power back into
your own hands. You will be unable to do any good in world if
YOU are too exhausted helping others. When you were in nursing,what would you have said to a doctor who was not sleeping or eating properly,and worked all hours God sent?
You would have seen clearly he needed to put self first for the
LONG HAUL of taking care of people and being best he could
be. Please try and be kind to dear self,while at same time asking
"whose responsible for me?"
Deepest Respect,
BLUEDOVE