Feeling very lonely and abandoned

Half of my real friends don't really talk to me anymore. A lot of them have moved on with their life: married, have kids, etc. I hate Facebook. It makes me depressed. Sometimes I'm tempted on deleting it but I keep it around so family will contact me. I just hardly ever update it or log on ever. There's just no point. I'm a loner and have nobody to hang out with. Pretty much a loner and the only friends I have are online. There's times where I long to have real life friends in person and this depresses me so much. Sometimes I fear that once people get to know me and find out I suffer from PTSD and that I'm depressed, they won't want to be my friend anymore. Anytime a friend stops talking to me I end up crying and blaming myself for it. I don't self harm myself or anything like that, I just cry. I'm very hard on myself a lot of the time and I must get out of this cycle. Have horrible low self esteem and I feel like nobody will ever want to be my friend. I'm even afraid to go into the chat room on here because I'm afraid people will pick on me or something. I feel so pathetic and I hate this...

Yes, the chatroom can be quite hectic at times, I agree, and isn't for everyone. I guess that's what you get when you throw a group of emotionally vulnerable people together.

I'm sorry you are feeling so alone and abandoned. I am too. People often say to me, "No wonder no one likes you" or something to that effect. I guess judgmental people will always judge. I really don't need that kind of asinine behavior in my life, and quite frankly it's really their loss that they didn't get to be my friend. I'm one hell of a friend BTW.

I guess the world can go stick it where the sun don't shine!

yep every friend or wife left i'm boring

Feeling lonely can make us too critical of ourselves.

I used to be afraid to go into the chat room for the same reason. People have never made fun of me and if they did, I would report it. PTSD and depression are very hard illnesses to have and they both cause distorted thinking. The right people will not stop being your friend because you have an illness. I would gladly be your friend and would even go to the chat room with you to help you feel more comfortable. Keep talking....you'd be surprised by how many of us can relate to what you are saying. (((Hugs)))

I"m sorry that you're feeling so bad.

Hi Amethyst
I used to feel lonely, and then I started enjoying my alone time. Now, I look forward to this time. You can do this too!

I haven't been on chat for years. It is not really to my taste. I think posting and meeting people is better.

I'm sorry you feel lonely.. I am, too No friends to talk to