[apleee]

Hi i am a 50 years old and my behaviour has driven most if not everyone away.
Apart from intense anger issues towards my parents my behaviour especially in relationships is inappropriate.
If i can give you an example if my text message isnt answered immediately or within minutes i let go verbally in a very nasty manner . I basically rip that person apart. Something comes over me it even happens when i am half asleep. Most of the time after ive sent the messages i cant remember what i wrote, and this can go on for days. My reaction is not normal . I have tried distracting myself but that doesnt work. And whats even worse is i dont see what the fuss is all about afterwards. Ive forgotten about it .
Why am i like this ?

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm no expert, but could it have something to do with some mental illness or something like that? I would check out a doctor and tell him about this.

Either way, you have all my support

[kadie2]

anger is supposed to be healthy, so I've been told. what I do with that anger is the key. I try to funnel it into my writing or painting. Somehow writing about what is making me so angry makes me see things from a different perspective. It doesn't always work, but it does work a lot of the time.

[Skeezyks]

Hello apleee: You know... anger, & the control of it, is something I have struggled with as well. Honestly, I don't know why you're the way you are. If it is even possible to determine this, it would take a mental health professional, a psychologist or psychiatrist, to ferret it out I would presume.

I know, in my own case, there are both physiological as well as experiential things in my past that I could point to that could have been contributing factors. I know that there are certain varieties of brain damage that can cause one to lose the ability to control one's anger. And there are some things in my past that might have contributed to something of this sort. But I also was verbally & physically bullied throughout junior & senior high school years by a gang of older boys. Everyone knew what was going on. But no one did anything. So that could certainly be a contributing factor as well. And there was other stuff.

Regardless, there's nothing I can do about any of that now. So I simply strive to be mindful of what's going on with me so that when I begin to feel my anger swelling, I have the opportunity to choose a different path.

[handheart]

Well you have this problems in your subconstient mind because you was afected by your parents anger etc and this negative setings are dominant in your subconstient mind .You must start remodeling yurself by stoping all negative thoughts stoping anger imediatly and start being grateful lovely and all good things .You must be peresverent and to fight everyday and dont let negative things to win .It will not be easy but you will succed if you never give up .The biggest fights its with ourself

[want2staysane]

Originally Posted by apleee

Hi i am a 50 years old and my behaviour has driven most if not everyone away.
Apart from intense anger issues towards my parents my behaviour especially in relationships is inappropriate.
If i can give you an example if my text message isnt answered immediately or within minutes i let go verbally in a very nasty manner . I basically rip that person apart. Something comes over me it even happens when i am half asleep. Most of the time after ive sent the messages i cant remember what i wrote, and this can go on for days. My reaction is not normal . I have tried distracting myself but that doesnt work. And whats even worse is i dont see what the fuss is all about afterwards. Ive forgotten about it .
Why am i like this ?

Most likely unresolved childhood wounds are trying to rear there heads let them out of thr box and get to know them then they will leave

[Thunder Bow]

This stems from feeling neglected as a child.You are wanting attention.

[Bill3]

What sort of refief (if any) have you found in therapy or other support?

[seesaw]

Can you turn your phone off entirely so you aren't able to send these messages?

[KarenSue]

Originally Posted by kadie2

anger is supposed to be healthy, so I've been told. what I do with that anger is the key. I try to funnel it into my writing or painting. Somehow writing about what is making me so angry makes me see things from a different perspective. It doesn't always work, but it does work a lot of the time.

Writing feelings down has helped me since I was in 14. I'm now 57, still helps! I can rant about someone without hurting them, I typically destroy what I wrote. I use a spiral notebook. Tear out the page, and shred it when done. I usually feel differently about being angry after some time has passed. Writing it down first gives me that time.