I just *****ed my mom out for moving my hamper. I'm so angry. I'm such an angry person and I feel bad about it. I don't want to be this way. Maybe I'm bipolar. I don't know. I need to move out of my parents house, I really do. The sight of my dad makes me feel sick. He always has a beer in his hand. I hate them. Clearly I need therapy. I wish my parents would also get therapy.

This anger, this is not who I want to be. I don't want to yell at people. I'm so impulsive. Like it happens in an instant.

[Skeezyks]

Well... I'm an old codger. But I have this problem too. And I don't like being this way either. Every time I pop off at something I instantly feel bad about it. But, as you wrote, it happens in an instant. So it seems it's almost impossible to control. I meditate & do yoga & stuff & that all helps. But when push comes to shove, as the saying goes, I can still come unglued in the proverbial blink of an eye... It's frustrating.

Thanks Skeezyks. I think yoga sounds helpful. I do meditation, and it is helpful. I used to be more fearful than angry. And more passive. I don't know what changed. Probably experiencing trauma, and having it feel good when I stood up for myself finally. I would say that the past couple weeks, I have been more angry than my norm. I have also been very depressed on and off. Anywho, my emotions have been mainly expressed negatively towards my mom, and brother, and dad, when I get angry. I think because they can't get rid of me so I'm comfortable. Lol. I don't want to be like this so I'm looking up stuff about anger. I have cooled down.

What I'm reading about anger is interesting. It is saying that anger really is a natural emotion. And some people are more angry than others. It also says that showing anger is not as accepted as showing other negative emotions like say, depression. I think this could be true.

I am finding some good info in this page: http://www.apa.org/topics/anger/control.aspx

I'm going to talk to my therapist too. I have an appt. with a psychiatrist soon, and I'm glad, because I think this stuff is biological. At least some of it. Like the way I have been feeling lately.

[Thunder Bow]

You feel better when you move out.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm glad you're seeing a therapist. Yoga is a good suggestion as well - anything that can help you feel better.