I look on social media, and I see people smiling and happy and progressing in life (especially on LinkedIn where people keep adding skills and having new jobs, sharing articles, ... etc), while I am sitting alone all day long feeling bad about myself and my life. I avoid everything because of one thing: being awful in social situations. I am so depressed because of this. I have no social or professional life. I have no spirit to venture in life or talk to anyone. I just want to crawl into my bed and sleep, forever. My father is the reason of my failure, and now he is crying because he says I make him ashamed of my lack of sociability and of my weak personality in front of people ....

That is his 'stuff' not yours. You are not him, nor are you an extension of him, you can feel pity or compassion for his sadness but you are not responsible for it.

You may have social anxiety issues but I see no evidence of a 'weak' personailty from your posts. Social anxiety gets worse under pressure - it seems you have been put under a lot of pressure recently to 'perform', this is not helpful.

You might want to think about what would be helpful in your next steps, and not put pressure on yourself, consider your options.

I put myself in the corner, and I cannot do anything right now, which makes me feel even worse. I knew this would happen to me, that's why I didn't come home earlier. I was thinking what if things turned to be like they are now. I was stupid to even consider returning home. Now I am not sure how to leave. Yes, I am under pressure all the time. I don't want to see anyone, but I am faced with shaming and criticism. My father keeps criticizing me whether I talked or not. He doesn't like me being quiet, and he doesn't like me when I speak. He wants me to be his ideal and imaginary son, the image in his mind he wishes me to be. He doesn't want to accept me as I am the awkward and quiet son. That is why I want to leave so badly. If they were more accepting and loving, I would stay. But like this ... no way. The problem is that he thinks he is a loving father. He is very delusional. Today he cried while lecturing me because according to him I am destroying his life because of my lack of social skills and from being in distance from people. I don't now why he gets his value from me. I cannot live my life and I don't want to live my life, not as he wants. Why does he make it about him? I don't understand ... I have made my mind. I am leaving this time with no return. I am just waiting the right moment to leave.

[Open Eyes]

Why does he make it about him?

Because that is ALL he knows Stranger, as I have mentioned in your other thread from what you shared he was "always" like that. He did not help you develop socially when you were younger and from that you struggle with anxiety about socializing with others.