[Chocopiano27]

I've had social anxiety since long ago.And it's just tiring.

I still feel intimated talking to popular girls (i am a girl) and it's upsetting since they don't mean any harm. I'm just tired of my own feeling, panicking (freezing) and stressing all the time also overthinking about every little social interactions with them.

I just wanna have a group of normal girl friends. It's tired to be independent and having to be the 'one of the guys' kind of girl all the time. I want to be able to befriends with girls and not always be intimidated just by talking with them. I don't want to always think of them as a 'soft' 'hot headed' creatures. It's just hard to get that mindset out of my head and I'm always tired of thinking I'd always break them and make them angry. I just don't want to be hated.

Originally Posted by Chocopiano27

I've had social anxiety since long ago.And it's just tiring.

I still feel intimated talking to popular girls (i am a girl) and it's upsetting since they don't mean any harm. I'm just tired of my own feeling, panicking (freezing) and stressing all the time also overthinking about every little social interactions with them.

I just wanna have a group of normal girl friends. It's tired to be independent and having to be the 'one of the guys' kind of girl all the time. I want to be able to befriends with girls and not always be intimidated just by talking with them. I don't want to always think of them as a 'soft' 'hot headed' creatures. It's just hard to get that mindset out of my head and I'm always tired of thinking I'd always break them and make them angry. I just don't want to be hated.

Anxiety can be exhausting, but from my own experience I'd advise getting checked out by the Dr because sometimes tiredness can have a physical cause.

About the second part of your post, I can identify in that I found men easier to get along with (& in my case I was bullied and cliqued out by other girls as a teen). But not all girls/women are the same, and not all will interact in the same way with you, there will be many who share similar values to you who you might become friends with. Personally as I matured into a woman this got easier for me, but yes it can be tough when still growing up and all the social pressures.

I agree. It took leaving the highschool scene and leaving home to break this.

Incidentally, when I returned for a highschool reunion there was a stark difference between those of us who had moved on and those who had remained behind. We who went our different ways seemed to have grown up. We socialized amongst the group regardless of our prior social standing. Meanwhile, those that stayed behind were still set in there cliques - the popular girls were still mean and stayed within their now shrunken group. The popular boys too were still in that demeaning state of social hierarchy. So very, very sad.

Hang on and time will take it's course. In the meantime you don't have to be a social butterfly and having a foot in the door of more than one clique is always a good thing.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you're having such a tough time. I have social anxiety as well and it is exhausting at times. You're not alone. If you need to talk I'm here.

I am tired of when people tell me, "life will be better tomorrow"

well, it isn't, and it hasn't been for 15 years.

so i'm sure you can stop now

it is always something though.

if it's not my dissociation makingm e feel like i'm in a far off country, it's my anxiety.

if it's not that, it's my mood swings.

if it's not that, it's my overeating issues

I don't ask for a perfect day, but a semi- normal one would be nice?

then the 1 form of tired I should be, because of lack of sleep, i'm not

i've not slept for ages, but because of a stupid sleep disorder i'm not tired and I don't need it.

what I meant by that (that came out wrong), is, we all need sleep to survive, sure.

but how can I sleep if I can't even rest?