[Algea10]

Last weekend I became so overwhelmed emotionally that it triggered a reaction that I learned a long time ago as a child. It's almost like a switch is thrown and my emotions are suppressed. It's as if they are shoved in a box where my diaphragm is and the box is locked. I look okay to most people on the outside. I appear rather bland, even tempered or go with the flow. I'm actually quite apathetic and the pain in my diaphragm area waxes and wanes depending on the stressors I'm exposed to. I know that this is a defensive coping mechanism and last time this happened I held on too long and had a complete breakdown. Unfortunately my psyD is on vacation for 8 days so I have to handle this until I see him next Tuesday. Sorry for the long vent.

[Yzen]

When I am overwhelmed emotionally, I put on music that feels therapeutic to me or I will take a long walk (in the woods if I can). For me, it seems to release some of the bottled up emotions.

I hope you don't hold on to it too long like last time. Take care of yourself and allow yourself to slow down.

[Sunflower123]

I'm sorry you are having such a tough time. Waiting 8 days seems like an eternity I know. Does he not have somebody on call while he's gone? Sometimes distraction is a good thing. Do you have something you could do to distract yourself from this in the meantime?

[MickeyCheeky]

Sorry you're in pain. 8 days sure is a long time.. is there anyone else that can help you outside of your Pdoc?

Big hugs

[Algea10]

Thank you all for your kind words and support. I'm so grateful that I found this website right before he left for vacation. He doesn't have anyone covering for him while he is away, but I did see my psychiatrist today since she is handling my medications just not my therapy sessions. It's a weird sharing of responsibilities between the psychologist and the psychiatrist. Thankfully, she made some extra time to talk with me about how I was doing and I did tell her about how difficult this week has been. I need to hang on for 4 more days and then I can call him if I need to. In the meantime thank you all for being there!!