[Cody_Glitch]

Hey there,

So I was just wondering, I go through mood swings mostly down down down
sometimes I get hyper usually for a day sort of overly happy.Most days I'm numb
no real feelings but I can put on a front. I'm in a constant state of worry.
My thoughts get to much over analysing then I sort of shutdown and stare blankly for long periods.

My anxiety has got to the point where I'm shaking and I have to literally
hold my leg down because they're bouncing. My speech goes slow and I can't hear. I've been having well break downs randomly crying. Not eating or sleeping not showering mostly because I'll break down.

I'm extremely empathic but also extremely callous/cold theres no middle ground. My temper puts me into a kind of tunnel vision, my whole demeanour changes, its mostly my eyes they go lifeless or dark. I can justify what Im planning and there's no remorse it makes me smile sort of.

I started recently started back on medication again. My anxiety is down, the depressed part is down which is good because it effects my judgement. I feel better but still numb.

So is right now my personality? Black and white no grey and numb.

[MickeyCheeky]

Well, most people after taking meds feel "numb".. their symptoms disappear, but they also don't feel anything. Not sure why that happens, it could be a common medication side-effect. I'm not sure, though.. perhaps you can try aksing your pdoc?

[Sunflower123]

I take a lot of meds at high doses and I don't feel numb. I wish it were so. I'm too much the other way. You could see your pdoc about tweaking your meds. Best wishes.

Hello Cody_Glitch, I see this is your first post so welcome to PC! I hope you find your time here to be of benefit. Once you have 5 approved posts, you will be able to enter the chat room and talk to fellow members. There is almost always someone online to chat with.

[Unrigged64072835]

I have bipolar and anxiety, and for a while I felt void and empty even with meds. Then I had another med change and I finally found one that lets me feel somewhat. There is also back-and-white thinking to consider, since there's no in-between. You should talk to a psychiatrist or therapist about that.