Not coping well.. I want to break down

I have too much going on. Many different emotions swirling. I just cut off two online friendships that were not serving me well, but I feel guilty and I know I probably hurt their feelings. I have interviews this week and am nervous. One I really want but I've been rejected so many times at this point that I am not hopeful or even optimisitic. I have a boyfriend/ex fiance that I am trying to figure things out with... I need a job and I need to move. I am completely overwhelmed and feel like I'm going to have a breakdown. I feel so alone.

I'm sorry you're feeling so overwhelmed. You cut off two online friendships that you thought were hurting you - you did the best thing for yourself. For now, try to focus on finding a job. You can work out the rest later, one step at the time. In the meantime, we're here for you.

Thank you so very much. Yes, these friendships were not helping me. I did what was best for me, which is very hard for me to do sometimes. :/

And thanks sooo very much for the hugs... I really need them right now. AND for the support! BIg hugs being sent your way!

Golden, I think you are letting the incident with that other website get to you. It seemed like you were doing well and then, BAM! Now You are caught up in a spiral of hurt, rejection, anger, etc. going round and round.

Now you're saying you can't cope. But guess what? You can can cope. You've done it before. Try to separate that past issue from your upcoming events.

Thanks. It's just everything altogether or combined that's getting to me.. I did have an incident with one of the members from that site last night that left me feeling crappy, but not overwhelmed. I am more so overwhelmed by my life in general right now. :/ I have coped before through a lot of crap, it's just right now, the crap is really getting to me. I just need to get through these two interviews this week, somehow.

I so understand being overwhelmed. I seem to inhabit that space frequently. I don't have any advice but wanted you to know you're not alone. I sympathize and support you. Sending wishes for internal peace while you get through those interviews.

Jennifer!

I just got through one of the interviews! YAY!! Now I just need to pray I get through the next one on Friday -- this is a big one!

Yay!!! Good luck Friday!!!

Aw, Jennifer, thanks for your support & encouragement!!! Mucho appreciated!! ((((Big hugs))))

Hey! Sorry you're feeling overwhelmed.

I have been on both ends of the spectrum: I've cut off people who were not good for me, and people have cut me off because I was toxic to them. When I got cut off, upon reflection I knew I had to take responsibility for my part. Whether or not they do this is something you have no control over nor is it your "job" or responsibility. You have to look out for your own emotional health, and if they were hurting you, you did the right thing.

As far as being overwhelmed, try to break down your obligations, goals, and priorities down into smaller pieces. I have an anxiety disorder, so oh boy do I know what overwhelmed feels like. I've found that, for me (can't speak for you), the things I was overwhelmed over were not quite as insurmountable as I had originally assumed, and so long as I took a deep breath and did things one step at a time, it all worked out okay. Like my mother would often say: "See? You were stressing out over nothing!" That's not to say that my problems were "nothing," just that in my own mind I made them seem bigger than they were. Baby steps. Break it down and do one thing at a time. You got this

Thank you... I missed this post, somehow.

It's complicated with the two online friendships. I tried to break it off, but then ended up not. Long-ish story, but I am weak and not strong enough I suppose right now. I really hurt one of them with my actions, so we are still friends. The other one, I will try a different way to ease out of communications.

That's good advice for when you're feeling so overwhelmed, thanks.
It all feels a bit more manageable now.. at that time, I couldn't handle it, but now I think I can.