Am i feeling remorse?

So, i have been going through some type of episode. I started to feel withdrawn and detached and honestly emotionally numb. I began to worry i might be a sociopath or something, and started doubting if i actually felt or could feel love for anyone, or any other emotion for that matter. I was with this girl, who i admittedly may have love bombed, but i dont think it was intentional, as i do think i WANTED there to be a real connection. Anyway, i got so bad, obsessing over these ideas of being an unemotional psychopath that i felt like i was lying to her and to myself. When i finally told her how i was feeling, she was obviously hurt and she left me. I dont know how i feel, i know i should feel terrible for doing this to her and making her feel this way but i dont know if i do, it doesnt feel like i really care to be honest, i know how that sounds. Im trying, im trying to out myself in her shoes and be remorseful and sorry. But its hard This is just reinforcing my fears of being what i dont want to be. I think ive made myself upset over all of it but im just so unsure of my feelings i dont know.

Hi there,

I have dealt with severe OCD related intrusive thoughts before, usually homicidal ones but I also struggled with intrusive thoughts about being a psychopath. Here is what I've learned over many hospitalizations and lots of good therapy: If you are bothering to ask and post about whether or not you are a psychopath, it's pretty much a 100% chance that you are NOT one. A true psychopath would likely never join this forum and would certainly not be concerned about their lack of empathy - that would just be how they are and would see nothing wrong with it.

The fact that you are so concerned, worried and remorseful shows me that you are a good person, but dealing with some intrusive thoughts that make you feel otherwise. I have been there. I highly recommend a good therapist with whom you can do exposure therapy. That is how I overcame my issues, and at one point I was told by my psychologist that I was one of the worst cases of Pure O he has ever seen. It can be done.

Thank you for that reply. I plan on getting some professional help soon. Its causing some pretty severe anxiety and depression, its time for a change. I need to feel my emotions again.

Good for you. Good luck and best wishes.

I agree with Scaredandconfused. . If you were a true sociopath you wouldn't even feel like you do now. You wouldn't care at all. I'm glad you're going to a therapist.