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Old Nov 01, 2017, 11:50 AM
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I am having an incredibly bad day and all I've done is wake up, eat, and walk my dogs...

Something this morning triggered memories of my jerk controlling father and stepmother. And all the rage from their mistreatment and abuse has been boiling back up for me.

Not to mention that there's other stuff going on that's irritating me too...but now I'm just feeling highly agitated and there's this inner anger, and I have a headache, ug, and I feel like there's nothing I can do to get rid of this rage. I don't have time to deal with it because I have a meeting with my freelance client (which I'm also irritated about, that's another story) and I don't want my inner rage to affect my meeting with this client.

Does anyone else get these PTSD rages triggered by memories of their trauma?

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Old Nov 01, 2017, 12:34 PM
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I am having an incredibly bad day and all I've done is wake up, eat, and walk my dogs...

Something this morning triggered memories of my jerk controlling father and stepmother. And all the rage from their mistreatment and abuse has been boiling back up for me.

Not to mention that there's other stuff going on that's irritating me too...but now I'm just feeling highly agitated and there's this inner anger, and I have a headache, ug, and I feel like there's nothing I can do to get rid of this rage. I don't have time to deal with it because I have a meeting with my freelance client (which I'm also irritated about, that's another story) and I don't want my inner rage to affect my meeting with this client.

Does anyone else get these PTSD rages triggered by memories of their trauma?

Seesaw
In past, I tended to turn them inward and into self-loathing which made me feel even worse. I've been taking my anger and frustrations from those experiences out on the elliptical machines. My legs are starting to look like I've been doing this my whole life. Guess I have more anger than I thought. Hmm...
I hope you find a safe outlet.
Thanks for this!
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Old Nov 01, 2017, 09:32 PM
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I have forgiven my mother. She was extremely mentally ill, bipolar, schizophrenic, personality disorder, uncontrollable raging manic, for sure. When I got older, she turned all of that rage on herself, and she couldn’t cope with herself. She had no control over herself. She is gone.

My father and stepmother—I have nothing for them. My stepmother is dead. She died of cancer. I’ll never understand why she hated me. My father is still alive. I have not talked to him for 20 years. I don’t care what happens to him. I will never speak to him again.

So, none of these people occupy anything in me.
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Old Nov 01, 2017, 09:34 PM
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I have forgiven my mother. She was extremely mentally ill, bipolar, schizophrenic, personality disorder, uncontrollable raging manic, for sure. When I got older, she turned all of that rage on herself, and she couldn’t cope with herself. She had no control over herself. She is gone.

My father and stepmother—I have nothing for them. My stepmother is dead. She died of cancer. I’ll never understand why she hated me. My father is still alive. I have not talked to him for 20 years. I don’t care what happens to him. I will never speak to him again.

So, none of these people occupy anything in me.
I guess it just continues to bother me because I don't like people out there telling lies about me.
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Primary Dx: C-PTSD and Severe Chronic Treatment Resistant Major Depressive Disorder
Secondary Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder with mild Agoraphobia.

Meds I've tried: Prozac, Zoloft, Celexa, Effexor, Remeron, Elavil, Wellbutrin, Risperidone, Abilify, Prazosin, Paxil, Trazadone, Tramadol, Topomax, Xanax, Propranolol, Valium, Visteril, Vraylar, Selinor, Clonopin, Ambien

Treatments I've done: CBT, DBT, Transcranial Magnetic Stimulation (TMS), Talk therapy, psychotherapy, exercise, diet, sleeping more, sleeping less...
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Old Nov 01, 2017, 09:43 PM
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They are the lowest of the low. Nothing they have to say matters. They are so far below you.

They cannot possibly say anything that matters.
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Old Nov 02, 2017, 10:20 AM
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Old Nov 07, 2017, 05:53 PM
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I get triggered alot and Im in a very rage-y situation.

My Advice just try to remember you are a wonderful person and eventually your trigger will lessen over time.

Sorry this is so sucky for you
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