Those Stories You Want to Tell

I remember one of my X friends, anna, had a really late night

she was on the sofa nest to me really trying to stay awake, but she kept drifting in and out- and you know sometimes people talk in their sleep?

she was like... oh all I want is a rabbit, please let me have a rabbit, and she started stroking the arm of the sofa thinking it was a rabbit

I told her okay, you can have a rabbit, and the peace that came to her face.... it wa so nice

going round to a friends house for a spicy Mexican dinner, and spending the majority of the evening in the bathroom

I was so embarrassed, because it was meant to be a real fun night

what was worse their was some sort of insect in the toilet and it kept buzzing round me

urg

answering to lady grantham.

I love downton abby, and at one point people decided to give me then ickname lady grantham

and I answered to it

and still will if I'm called it

In my mid teens I made this little "doll" (dont know if it could be still called a doll when it was a man) from fabric in the art room at school and stuffed with cotton wool. I made it at home though, because I was embarrassed. I used to take it to school sometimes but then I was worried I would lose it, so I stopped. I don't know what happened to that.

When I was younger I used to say really stupid things I thought were clever, then people would tell me off for being stupid and tell me "you're not clever". Now I just keep my mouth shut because whatever I say will be wrong. Others will look at me strangely and tell me I'm stupid or "not clever", though I don't try to be clever now. But it's just pointless bothering to say anything. It's easier to stay quiet and ignore people.

One time when I was about 12 I was in a shop with my mum, gran and uncle. My uncle made a joke I thought was hilarious but my mum and gran hadn't heard so I kept repeating it to them. They totally ignored me as usual, and eventually I gave up, got annoyed and embarrassed at the same time. So if nobody says anything, they will at least ignore me. Which is embarrassing.

I'm glad you bumped this thread.

I love posting in this one

I used to know a woman, really smelly woman actually- well I don't think it was her, I think it was the clothes she wore, which then made it her when she took them off

one day she turned to me and she said listen, can I ask you something?

I'm like sure- what is it?

and she goes to me.. why do you think I'm so unpopular?

I just gave her a hug and said listen... I can't speak for everyone, but I like you how you are

and everyone thinks it was so sweet me telling her that

when I was really small (even before my MI started), a group of us went rafting on the river.

well I didn't keep still and I fell off the raft in to the river.

not only was i covered in riverwater (clothes, shoes, the works), but then we had a picnic on the shore- and I had to strip naked in front of all the people on the shore because my clothes were soaked and they needed to dry

so I ate my picnic with nothing on.

seriously embarrassing!

1 year, someone got me a copy of the computer game " theme hospital"

I was so excited. really really excited to play it and create my own hospital

until...

I found out they'd pranked me and got me a version of the game with set up instructions in every language but english!.

wow was I fuming!. I did more than say cuss words (yes I could cuss at that age, I learned really young)

Nice thread

I can relate to this. I still feel really awkward when I say something in a group and no one responds. Sometimes I just repeat myself in a louder voice- and then feel even worse when no on responds.

I've met people recently who treat me like my opinion of them is vitally important. When I don't respond to them in they way they wish, then they try really hard to get a reaction out of me. I am making a point to notice their good points. One of these people was treated very badly by her family, and I wonder if I remind her of her father- and perhaps that is the reason way she acts the way she does around me.

I'm ambivalent about how to act. Sometimes I feel like making an issue of it, but I remain silent because I'm not sure what to say and I don't want to make things worse for her.

You have a perceptive approach.

When I was a kid and something bad happened I would draw a pic of myself and then another pic of "everyone else" who I assumed was fine. It seemed to make sense at the time.

Also I used to write all my toys names in a lined book and do a register like at school. But I soon realised they were all always there so I had to start leaving one somewhere else and pretend they were sick so I could mark them as absent on the register.

actually... I think the register thing is pretty cool.

what a neat idea

In first school I drew on the wall and got told off. A few days later I got this stupid idea I thought was great at the time. I drew on the wall again but I drew a thing the boys were obsessed with at the time. So when the teacher found it she assumed it must have been a boy, because "girls aren't interested in those". It was funny (at the time). Nobody got punished for it, she just said "no more drawing on walls".

In my teens I used to play a lot of video games and I had a crush on a character from one of the games. I knew this was wrong because he wasn't "real" but I did anyway. I had just started using the internet then and I was looking for sites about that game to find pictures of this character. This girl had drawn some pictures of him and had a site of them. I emailed her to talk about him and she gave me a really aggressive response. She said that this character was hers and everyone else should back off. I wasn't expecting that because the other people I had emailed were all friendly. Instead of ignoring her though I started an argument, wasted loads of time writing long angry emails to her (and reading the rubbish she sent back too). I wish I hadn't bothered with that but I was really stupid as a teenager.

We had a small drunken party when my mom went out of town to visit her boyfriend for the weekend. Probably 17 years old, maybe 18? This particular guy was extremely drunk. He threw a glass down and broke it, or maybe it was an accident. So strike one. Then I went into the bathroom after him and there was pee on toilet and the seat was up and toilet unflushed. I kicked him out and he walked the mile home. Besides that I was always nice to him and was caring towards him. Another time I saw him fighting in the street with his dad. He was crying hard and angry. I think I remember a large board was involved. I helped him somehow at some point but I’m not sure how. He thanked me somehow. I just remember there was warmth between us. He became best friends with another friend I knew. They had complicated fathers and absent moms in common. They partied way too much and got way too crazy. I found out that he stabbed the friend in the neck in some drunken fight and went to prison for some time. Years later I saw him at the gas station. We chatted and he told me what he did and apologized to me for his behavior, and for hurting our friend. He was so humiliated and sorrowful about what he had done. That was many years ago now and I’ve been thinking about him for the first time in a very long time.

When I was in fifth grade we had a movie about Haiti several times in a row. But in the movie they pronounced it Hiati (or Hyatee). I was amazed at how they could be so stupid.

How is this relevant in this thread? It probably isn't.

I got called for jury duty for the first time ever the other day and I actually enjoyed it. I was happy to just be out of the house and distracted from my family drama. There was this one woman, prospective juror, who tried to take over the whole room and berated the lawyer. The judge had to yell at her to shut up and just answer the questions. It was hilarious. Some people went into intense details about their life’s tragedies. It was so awkward and sad. They didn’t get picked for the jury. Neither did I. I think I proved myself to be overly emotional when I put myself in the defendant’s place and said “If it were me on trial I’d want to testify to prove my innocence.” So, great tip, if anyone wants to get out of jury duty, just say that.

When I was at work, I went on my livejournal at lunchtime. I already complained about work a lot on there but tried not to while I was there. But obviously it was in the history, and I had logged on, so they would have seen. Nobody ever said anything to me, they just told everyone in general not to use "chatroom", which it wasn't. But they must have seen.

I recently looked up my email address in google, and came across an old reivew I did for a website when I first started using thei nternet.

was looking back over it and thinking really?. this is so ****.

When I was younger, me and my brother would fight over which cartoons we would watch after school. There was one day in particular where I wanted to watch something on one channel and he wanted to watch something on another channel. Of course him being younger, got his own way. I thought this was unfair so I tried to brainwash him into liking the one I wanted to watch and kept asking him which was best. For some reason I actually thought this would work, but of course when that day came around he wanted to watch the other one. I went into a massive huff over it. I realise now it was totally stupid and have no idea why this was so important to me back then.

When I was younger, mostly in my teens I thought I was so clever saying certain things. I said some really bad and stupid things that I still feel embarrassed about because I have no idea why I said them. In fact most of them I realised straight afterwards and wished I had kept my mouth shut. And eventually I think I got the point to just keep my mouth shut anyway.

Most of these were to my mum, but sometimes other people, like a guy at work. I said something thinking it was a clever/funny joke and he took it a different way and said something and I was just horrified. The other girl in the office told me off and then they both started going on about how cheeky I was. I tried to say "no, I didn't mean that", but they weren't listening. I was so embarrassed and wishing I had stayed quiet.

Some of them were about obsessions I had at the time. I'd say something as an excuse to bring the subject up or something. Or just to mention it. Why? I really have no idea. I obviously thought it was clever at the time. I am so embarrassing.

@randomer123
Been there... done that... I've embarrassed myself many times.

Albert Ellis, creator of CBT (formerly REBT) therapy, would suggest to some clients that they go ahead and embarrass themselves on purpose- as part of their therapy. Shame Attacks |

I am embarrassed to admit this (being an animal lover), but I once through stones at a puppy

I didn't know the puppy was their, it must have just come out from under a table or something- but the owner of the puppy walked in, punched me in the face and went.... that's my dog you ****ing idiot

my reaction was to just kneel down and start crying bitterly

from the pain of the punch and from the fact I never want to hurt an animal

the puppy was okay with me though. I made it up to her by giving her a hug