I don't know what the **** is going on with me lately. But I am really really really stressed, and have been on and off for a few weeks now. Its gotten really bad tonight. I hate the people who have made it worse: a person who will not be named, and some of my workers in the residential program I'm in. They're like ****ing children. They run around a lot. But don't help with ****. I'm going to therapy tomorrow and I think it will help. I DON'T feel like myself. I have a second interview tomorrow and I don't even want to go.

It sounds like you have had a lot of change recently Starry, and some big steps, living independently, landing job interviews. This is great but maybe stressing you a little bit? I know job interviews stress me (I know some people who love them but not many!), how I dealt with it is scheduling in something nice afterwards, maybe a walk or a coffee with a friend (or alone if you prefer it).

Good luck!

[CepheidVariable]

I'm sorry, starry.

How did the therapy session go today?

I'm doing much better today. I slept over at my parents house last night, and I took a lot of me time, last night and today.

I had the interview today (it was a second interview). She wants me to take a drug test and a criminal background test tomorrow. Which I will pass with flying colors. I don't know if I want the job though. I was pretty unsure about it from the get go, and feel like it wouldn't be a good fit for me. My plan is to call her tomorrow, and tell her. I'm super flattered to be wanted for a job. Especially so soon in my job search. Its a good feeling. But I plan to keep searching for now, and also find someplace else to volunteer (another story for another time, though, nothing bad).

My therapy session was stellar. She was really helpful. I spoke to like 3 people including her about the interview. She's the only one who mentioned my body language. And she's the second person who told me to go with my gut. I talked to her about the topic of this thread too, my stress, and she had some very helpful things to say.

In terms of my residential workers, I was pretty harsh about them in my first post, and I was basically venting. They're more than just children. Some things happened yesterday that were really stressful with them. but they are also understanding and kind about even their own mistakes.

[CepheidVariable]

That's wonderful that today was such a better day.

Going back into work is a big step, it's understandable you are feeling uncertain, defintely follow your gut instinct on this, it sounds like you interviewed well - well done!

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so happy you're feeling better now, starry!

[Bill3]