[Zoo2847]

I started working into a new career field about two months ago. I used to work in warehouses before and just got used to manual labor. Well this new job is completely different. My coworkers all went to college or they are in college. This job requires you to use your brain, workout math problems in your head. I never knew how uneducated I was until I stared working here. I feel intimated by all of my coworkers because I continuously make mistakes and the customers notice it as well. I became the joke around my work place same way I became the joke around my family and people I know. It's been TWO MONTHS I should get used to the job by now but this is the first time I am not excelling at my job. I am a hard worker and do try my best to get the job done. My past managers/supervisors all loved the way I work because I am a hard worker.

I guess I am not a smart worker...

I am trying to grow mind by reading and learning new things. But this job is making me have low self esteem... UUUUUGGGGHHH I wish I could stop making mistakes.

Originally Posted by Zoo2847

I guess I am not a smart worker...
I am trying to grow mind by reading and learning new things. But this job is making me have low self esteem... UUUUUGGGGHHH I wish I could stop making mistakes.

It sounds like you are being too hard on yourself. Any job takes time to learn, this is why most "probation" periods are 6 months. Be proud of yourself that you are trying something new and challenging yourself.

Give it more time. Everyone is not at their best when they are first starting. It took me over a year to get the hang of my job and now I am considered the master.

"Everybody is a genius. But if you judge a fish by its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing that it is stupid." - Albert Einstein

While I disagree that everyone is a genius, I think that everyone is good at something. Perhaps this isn't your strongest area, but keep in mind that you are still quite new at it. Your co-workers have studied this in college, they have had a lot more practice than you. 2 months is not nearly long enough to master something.

Not sure how long probation period is for you, but here it's 3 months. If you have not been let go by the time your probation period is over, that is a very good sign and it means they want to keep you. Keep trying your best, that's all you can ask of yourself.

If it turns out that this career field isn't for you, and you decide to move on to something else, don't consider it a failure by any means. I tried several jobs in the food industry before accepting that it was too stressful for me, and I couldn't handle it. Am I a failure for that? Absolutely not. Everyone has their strengths and weaknesses.

[MickeyCheeky]

Everybody has their own skills. There's no shame in admitting our own limitations.

Perhaps you just need to get used to your new environement; but if that isn't the case, don't feel guilty about trying something else.

[Thunder Bow]

You are being bullied by your co-workers. Time to stand up to them.

[FallDuskTrain]

have you considered making a list of your limitations and taking classes on them? This seems like a point in your life in which you are given the opportunity to see your minuses and turning them into plusses? May be going back to get an education? Trade school? AA?
We all have been in your shoes...
You sound very smart and responsible and it sounds like you have a good work ethic. These qualities, when combined with some education, can bring your self confidence back and open up new doors for you.

[wolfgaze]

Your particular job is not your identity - it doesn't have any bearing on your higher sense of self. If you were GREAT at it - that doesn't make your identity (sense of self) greater or more valuable/important. Similarly, if you were NOT GOOD at it - that doesn't make your identity (sense of self) any lesser, or less valuable. It's all too easy to allow our sense of who we are to become entangled in activities and experiences that really have no real bearing on it...

You said, "I became the joke around my work place same way I became the joke around my family and people I know"... It sounds like you are re-living a 'dynamic' in your workplace (current circumstances) that was previously present in other areas of your life and from earlier life experience. You are NOT a 'joke' - but your experience of these feelings of being a 'joke' is of course real... It's an observable phenomenon that individuals tend to be drawn to life situations and circumstances that will activate and stimulate unresolved emotional energy (baggage) that is stored and held onto within them... It doesn't surprise me that you found yourself in a work environement that is influencing you to feel something inside you that you previously had a history with and are familiar with. The message coming from the Universe is one along the lines of, "Now it's time for you to confront, acknowledge, and process these challenging emotions from your past"... If you could have healed this at an earlier time in your life - that would have unfoled and transpired. It didn't happen at an earlier time, because you weren't ready to go through that yet. These things will keep resurfacing until you courageously allow yourself to endure through the challenging healing process - so you can eventually liberate yourself. Don't view the current circumstances as a 'threat' to who you are - look at them as an important opportunity to facilitate growth and healing!

P.S. - I can literally think of thousands of jobs that I would perform poorly at! We cannot measure our worth/value by our ability to perform any particular type of job. No sense in that - so pull back from any such thinking/thoughts....