How are you coping today?

I feel awful! My anxiety is getting worse! I feel depressed all the time!

I'm coping okay. I'm still journaling. I took a PRN when I needed one. Life has been hard for me recently but I'm doing the best I can.

I'm doing pretty well. Took a nap today. And the weather is sunny and beautiful, which helps.

feeling depressed

had breakfast and did my usual alexa games (5/15), that's pretty bay

back killing me as usual and can't think of many reasons to be greatful today. litirally the only thing that crosses my mind is that their's a nice breeze outside. it's lovely with my window open feeling the breeze

I did ok until I came home and found the washing machine that the engineer fixed today has developed another fault!I had been having a good day,it was my birthday after all but I saw a program that upset and frustrated me on top of the fact I have been trying to dry some clothes in the machine all day and night,and the dryer starts working but by the end of the cycle the clothes are wet again.

last night was so loud outside

gave me a bit of a headache (which thankfully is all ready going)

I feel depressed today, but figure it has a lot to do with it being sunday

I have never coped well with sundays. I don't know what it is about them, they just don't work for me

Good I am coping well today.

yesterday night was so much quieter.

was nice and I apreciated it, still didn't get any sleep though

(at least I had ample time to get rid of my headache though!). I don't have one today)

I am okay today so far, even if I don't actually have any plans or anything.

I went to the shop to buy some energy drink and some sweets and plan to catch up on some tv shows after I've checked the forum

(I recorded the new series of 8 out of 10 cats, honestly can't wait.)

also did some helping out on blah therapy last night

spoke to a woman called stephanie from the USA who was quite fun to talk to

Yesterday was terrible my anxiety was crippling my only friend wasnt around so i was alone today is preety much the same i just feel like im not ment to be here you know

hey Sypher94,

welcome to the forum. I hope it helps

all of us have been where you are (and a lot of us continue to struggle)

hang in their

I got some chores done today which I was pleased about and signed papers for getting CCTV installed.It was a bit boring today and I was lonely.I am going to bed early cos I have to get up early cos engineer is coming to fix my washer/dryer.

I've been dealing with a lot of stress lately. Today wasn't an easy day but it was better than I expected. I managed to do everything I need to do. I have a long week ahead but I'm trying not to be too hard on myself

I seem to be on imaginary vacations again (urg)

first thought this morning was one of sadness and a lot of emotion- not to mention hurrying around trying to get ready for a flight

(you know, the flight I didn't even need to catch in the first place)

I don't know why I do this

that aside I just feel blah

not like today's especially good for anything, well that's how I see it

Not good,it could be I have cancer again,I am bleeding down below and I am post menopause.Last time I had it was in 2016.I am shocked,upset and worried!

Do you have an appt. to find out? Uncertainty is unnerving...

I just finished catching up with one of my soap operas.

such an upsetting episode.. made me feel sad and cry...

Yes I am seeing the doctor on thursday,I won't know until I have been referred to hospital and they do a biopsy,so too early to find out yet.Thanks for asking though.I will update as soon as I know.I am starting a diet of anti cancer foods straight away.

even though I've not felt suicidal today, I have had a very difficult day (or morning I should say) having a meeting with a person about end of life care.

well, I've always been saying I want to tell someone what I want to happen, and today was it

and yes, it was difficult- though the guy listened and told me that he understood, the fact I was even talking to a guy (not a girl) freaked me out

the afternoon's been better, but very draining. after all those thoughts and an intense conversation, I didn't want to do much

sat down and watched life in peaces

now I'm hungry though. want my sausages

perhaps the scarriest thing to come out of today, is the realisation that I've not listened to any type of music in 2 days, and since I'm someone who loves
music, that's a pretty scary/ depressing thought

today was a pretty average day.

nothing really bad happened, but then nothing really good happened either

is it a little scary that a day of just going through the motions is thought of as a normal day for me?

that's kinda depressing

I felt sad today,I went and saw the film Five Feet Apart,which was sad,inspiring,warm,I cried buckets which helped me released the sadness I was carrying inside for myself,the tears felt good and were a release.I coped best I could by going to my favourite places and doing my favourite things.

my dinner yesterday was rank.

I have to say it, it was pure rank (and I never actually use that word, gross usually covers it)

I still have the taste in my mouth even now and it's the following day

I had a rough mnight with a lot of flashbacks (very intense, too!)

today I had my shower which made me feel as ugly as they come (not to mention give mee intense backpain) which is not relenting even 4 hours later
shopping arived for the week (lots of tasty soda), but again, verry heavy on the back

and now nothing to do for the rest of the day

so I guess just sit here and pretend to exist..

I cried at work today. No one saw me. It's not the work itself that's making me cry. I love my job!

It's everything else right now that's sapping the energy from me to even focus here. I can't focus on work, hobbies, anything. I'm putting all my effort into fixing things right now, but life won't cooperate...

I am mentally and emotionally drained so I was struggling today but still I ploughed on and went through the motions and cos I felt so low I treated myself to a steak meal at the pub and as I am not allowed soda cos of the sugar and diet pepsi is not allowed cos of the aspartame I allowed myself a pint of larger and lime.

yesterday after dinner I took a walk to the shopp

it was nice in the cool air, and rather quiet too

baught some lucasade

came home and watched young sheldon which was actually quite funny, for once in my life I enjoyed watching it (I don't often enjoy it, his voice annoys me) but the whole saga with the sandwich made me smile

despite it being a quiet night without flashbacks I didn't get rest. back was far too painfull to lie down.

today I am feeling horrible. it's the start of brittish summertime (well it's not, but it's what they say when the clocks go forward)

I hate the longer hours of light, I hate the warmer weather, I hate the ****ing bugs because I'm alergic, from now until november life's basically a ****ing screw up