How are you coping today?

Not too good today,I feel like giving up,but I am not going to.

honestly I fdeel like ****

most of it's down to the fact I had my shower and that never lifts my mood- just makes me feel gross (seeing my body and stuff just freaks me), and honestly my mood's not been great either.
I've had this " what ever" attitude for the past few days. I did my food shopping today because I had too, but that's all I did- I sat in my bedroom, curtains closed, listening to teacup travels (classical music cd)

you know when your mood's not great when you don't even want light in your room

Yes,today I handled everything well!

How an I feeling today... OOO you know yourself... a bit of this and a bit of that... and i suppose a bit of the other thing
In all seriousness, I am doing fine. That in spite of my alter-ego who is trying to depress me.

It is still very early here, but so far I am coping.

I've been sat here for the past 15/20 minits wondering what I'm going to say about today (I litirally don't know)

well not really one of the best days- sat here in the dark (now posting on the forum), but before watching tv, and in a lot of chronic pain

can't believe it's sunday and another weekend has passed with very little (none?) activity

what can I say

I wasn't allowed to sleep much last night (the noise from the idiots upstairs), and then I was out all morning and afternoon. But I got what I could done as soon as I got back and the rest has to wait until tonight.

not well today.

I've lost my white halloween lights- which is causing me some pannic (I know it's not halloween, but I want them up for christmas)- I think it's more an OCD thing, having a diffrent colored light in my room just doesn't sit right with me

my mother emailed me more abusive threats today (going as far to say that if I was dead, she would have the best christmas ever)

and just feel genrally depressed and blah.

oh yeah and I'm in more pain than you can shake a stick at- on top of the physical psymptoms I tend to get when I'm depressed.

I am so happy for you that you are able to cope with this traumatic event. It was a very difficult challenge the life threw at you. They fact that you are doing well with it made me smile. Thank you!

Myself, I am struggling, but we all have to keep trying and never ever give up.

today I finally got round to watching "elf", and actually really enjoyed it.

I think i mentioned here before- someone tried to lend me the disk but it was badly damaged.

it was nice to watch it in full on tv- okay, so the end was a bit.... blah, but the rest of it was good (I love the fact that one of the characters in elf has my name!)

it's still not as good as muppet's christmas carol, but the movie is up their now as one of my top christmas movies. could it be something I watch every christmas?. quite possibly!

had my nails repainted today (gold with glitter), and also wrote my shopping list and menu for next week.

the bad sides of today is that I didn't sleep at all last night, and that I spent the day in unthinkable amounts of pain (I think I had enough pain in my back and legs today to probably break a world record)

also very depressed

I was low and sad all day,memories from the past and regrets,an act of omission came back to haunt me and someone I had a crush on years ago but whom hated me and did me harm was on my mind.Why did I care and desire someone so much who only ever saw me as a potential notch on his bedpost and who had no regard for me or my feelings at all?Who insulted me and my intelligence with contempt and went to a lot of trouble,out of his way to hurt me and destroy my life and succeeded.

Today was okay. I did have some difficulty with panic for a bit in the evening and had to take a break and PRN to calm myself down. Things got better and now I am just browsing the internet and here at the forums.

Not well at all. Work sucks. Our regular editor is out and our boss is being super nitpicky when she does actually edit my work.

The situation with our neighbors is more unbearable every day. The noise is awful, which does not help my concentration. We are waiting to hear when we can sign the deed for the house we are buying. It was supposed to be ready yesterday, but there was a delay and the wait is killing me, especially since we need to get a start on moving.


Oh, and my family is pressuring me to call my mom. She had a minor stroke and is in a rehab facility. We have an extremely complicated relationship and haven't been speaking since she seems to have farmed out dealing with me to my dad. I don't even know what to say to her and I am so mentally fragile today anyways, I don't think I can do it.

So, here I am, crying and trying to work.

Not very well

I have been in so much physical pain today that any other emotions I may have had were dulled

all I could feel was the pain. it was so painful

Practicing Yo-chi-lates to stretch out my back and keep it that way.
Pumped some iron

Listen to music
Pet the cat(s) when they allowed
Took a walk outside between rain showers.

I’m better now that it’s Friday and taking next week off.

yesterday I went to do my christmas shopping (for my christmas dinner)

it was lovely to see that so many people were in the christmas spirit- with a lot of them wishing me merry christmas as they passed me by

I wasn't able to get everything I needed, but most things.

my pain is lesss today

good... 2 days of extreme pain is enough!

Did very well today.

I had a good day today(christmas eve),or yesterday now.It is 2.51am,I was asleep from 10pm to 1.15am,I then woke and came downstairs and did the washing up of dishes and put them away and sorted the glass and recycling.I cleaned the kitchen floor and tidied up.
I am now on the forum,I don't feel like going back to sleep yet.

As I say christmas eve was pleasant,I was alone with my cats.I ate cauliflower cheese,there is enough left over to have with more vegetables today,which is christmas day.It will be an ordinary day,I am not having xmas dinner until the 27th on thursday.My niece is coming then and we are doing it like it is our xmas day with xmas dinner and opening presents,watching DVD's ,listening to CD's.

Today,Christmas day I will be alone again.I will be able to message my niece see how she got on at my mum's and if she likes the presents I chose for her and got for her on behalf of my mum.I will probably have the company of the tv and radio today.And my beautiful cats of course.

All in all I think I am coping well with the holidays.

I am really struggling with christmas grattitude.

I am close to tears this morning because I didn't get what I wanted for christmas (a new sparkly dress), however- I did get a new bottle of perfume and a beautiful music box (you spin it around and it plays we wish you a merry christmas)

I'm close to crying my eyes out though because I really wanted the dress

honestly I feel like a bratty kid at the moment- give me what I want or i'm gonna pout type thing

of course I'm grateful, the music box is lovely and the perfume smells amazing, but I can't shake what I really wanted- and what's worse is that the woman who actually got me the perfume, you could tell I didn't react like she was expecting.

how to be greatful for it when your face is showing a diffrent story

hard one..

I am getting on ok today,no deep depression like usual,I have been feeling lighter since I cut my narcissist mother and narcissist sister out of my life,five weeks ago.

I feel a bit emotional.

silly really... I'm watching the christmas music channel and they are playing " I love christmas time" by the fast food rockers

I can't help thinking that tomorrow the channel won't be their and it will be back to old, boring, music from the 1980's.

which I have no right to ***** about- because if I want christmas music I can play it anytime of the year

just feel a little upset by it all.. the christmas music channel has been a part of my life for like a month (I know, that's sad, right?)

and now it's going away

I'm still struggling with christmas grattitude too

and the fact that people are going on about how expensive it is to buy a dress

yeah yeah, money is more important than my happyness, I get it