How are you coping today?

I read your thread about this and I'm just as annoyed as you are (even though I don't know anyone involved)

it's just not doing your job properly. these so called medical staff need to do a bit better

and it isn't just hospitals either

nursing homes can be just as bad.. my 93 year old grandmother had dimentia, and apart from the obvious (not knowing who she was with, where she was etc), the staff treated her like they didn't care

one of the things they would do is leave her for hours in her own mess, and when they checked on her in the evening, she was too tired to really say much so they let her sleep in it

quite disgusting but that's how she was treated

coping quite well today

my only complaint is kids running around screaming while I was trying to listen to church this morning

I am feeling great other than feeling tired.

Sorry to hear that happened to your grandmother raging vortex they ought to have cared about her and seen to her basic hygiene!That is appalling to leave her for hours in her own mess!I feel for you and her.

Today I am still upset about what happened to mum yesterday!I am still in emotional pain and inconsolable.I didn't like being alone today so I came out ate at pub and hanging out at cafe.I am going to see a film take my mind of it!I spoke to mum today she sounds ok she was philosophical about it.She said accidents happen she feels ok and isn't in pain!So that's it!But it has left me shaky and I don't trust people I see them as selfish and uncaring now I don't like people much after yesterday and I am struggling to cope!My foundations have been dug up and uprooted.There is a woman works at the cafe she is all false personality and false smiles.She puts on an act for the customers and let's the other girls do the hard work.I don't like her she is false and upsets me!I feel like screaming and shouting you are all a parade of insincere clowns!Everything is upsetting me today I can't cope!Help me please I am losing my mind again!

thank you.

yes... I don't think that was very professional. I don't think anyone can really justify doing that

if you go in to care, you have to be prepared to handle anything- absolutely anything, from dirty clothes and helping out with showers, to falls, first aid, and quite possible death.

I know it's difficult, because care is such a big industry and you need a lot of patience, but for some things their's litirally no excuse

I hope you enjoy the movie and it takes your mind off things. I am glad you talked to your mother too.

blah

awake all night and just wondering what exactly I'm going to do with myself

nothing planned so on here for now

Not coping well today.Inside me it feels like an earthquake is happening!Massive upheaval and destabilization!

5 PM and I have accomplished nothing

not the sort of day you ever really want

My life is less stressful right now. I am using the opportunity (that I am under less stress) to try to cut my Xanax out of my life (I prefer to save it for when I am understress). Took me a while to fall asleep last night and didn't sleep as well but this is what happens when you have been taking regularly then cutback/stop. I now know how addictive it can be and how quickly we can develop tolerance for it. I only take a very small amount (1/3 of .5 mg) when I start feeling crappy withdrawal symptoms. Haven't taken it for a couple of days and no withdrawal symptoms yet (this time).

ditto yesterday.

only reason I'm up is because I can't sleep

badly.

the fact I went out to get some more drink only caused me pain

did nothing for my mood

Great because I got up early instead of daydreaming. I now set aside time to daydream later in the day. In the morning I just get up, and if a daydream starts I'll tell myself "I'll do this later". This means I get up, get ready, get housework etc done, and then I have time for other things (daydreaming, reading etc). This way I feel so much better and there's no stress or disorganisation.

For once in a long time, I am not coping very well.

I've been feeling lonely and I'm trying to distract myself.

Good! I had a good week.Got chores done and gardening.Got allocated a new gardener whom I met!Had time to reflect.I wonder if this time of life to going to go well?

I had a lot to do today but I don't think I can do it all. I will just have to accept that some of it will have to wait until tomorrow.

Got rejected by my niece and narc sister!My niece don't want to be close with me and my narc sis wants to keep us apart she wants me isolated.My niece told her mum she can't say no cos she's scared to upset me then she gets upset cos she's agreed to meet me!So I told my niece I wasn't gonna ask to see her or message her I will only see her if she suggests it and I won't message her either!I don't think my niece cares that I am all alone or about my well being.I think my narc sis finds it easier to control her daughter if I am not close to her and if I see less of my niece my narc sister thinks she can manipulate me more into helping her care for our elderly infirm blind mother.I guess I have to let go of my niece and know when I'm not wanted!

I am not going to text narc everyday or visit my mum often.I have spent my whole life living up to the family needs.I am putting myself first from now on.

I will be very busy this afternoon, so I'm trying to get all other things done this morning. Most things, I can't do yet though, and it's causing some frustration. Trying to stay calm. I can probably do some of these things tomorrow if I have to.

I’d say a 7 out of 10. I am trying to stay positive in-spite of feeling really lonely and wanting physical affection. I’m also battling a new phobia and I am trying really hard not to beat myself up for not being over it. I’m really eager to make progress but I don’t see my therapist for another week.

1 out of 10, I feel like a 6, mainly because of my headache.

I may take a nap later on to see if it subsides. Right now I'm drinking plenty of water and took something for the pain. I often get them after it rains.

I feel blah.

done nothing productive all day and it really sucks

I haven't been feeling well lately. I feel like I'm happy when I'm supposed to be sad, and I'm sad when I am supposed to be happy. And I find it difficult to control my emotions, including anger as well. Feeling rather disappointed with myself.

I’m on autopilot. My emotions are flat and I can only seem to feel anger and irritation.

wasted another day

feel hopeless