[Sleepyspoon]

I don’t want to go to the doctor but I need to it’s just this endless cycle of of self destruction and who gives a **** I can’t connect with people anymore or enjoy anything

Possible trigger:

I feel like ending it all.

i can’t control my emotions I feel like a different person everyday is there anyone that can relate or try to help talk me into going?

[Candy1955]

I am so sorry. I don"t know how I can help but you should not be on your own right now. Call your doctor or 911 or a prevention hot line. Please don't harm yourself.

[Sleepyspoon]

I just don’t know anymore I just want all this to go away

[Sleepyspoon]

I haven’t worked in 6 months my family fell apart everything just happens so fast I’m scared to go back to the hospital

[MickeyCheeky]

I know it can be scary, but if it can save your life, please think of doing it..

[mote.of.soul]

Yes, you need to go and see your doctor. Tell them exactly what you said in this post, tell the doctor you need their help. Don't lose hope please, Sleepyspoon and hang in there. Stay strong within yourself and fight off these inner negativities. We're on your side! So, book that appointment with your doctor. It's the wise thing to do.

[Candy1955]

I hope you're better today. Have been thinking about you and praying for you overnight.

[Sleepyspoon]

Thank you everyone I’m just going through a rough patch I took 1000mg of nerotin last night to help me sleep so ...I got high and drunk instead please no judgment over the years I have been a recovering addict I know it’s bad ....I just wish I had my family back I did everything I was clean the whole time we were together then I went back it soon as my life fell apart I’m clean again off hard drugs

[BiPolarJoe]

Sleepyspoon, it's so hard how a rough patch in our life so easily triggers substance use. The urge to feel better right now is a strong pull that is so hard to resist. My only suggestion is if you aren't seeing a therapist maybe seek one out. Know that finding a good therapist that you can open up to can take some time...it did for me. There are good ones out there that can give us some tools to walk through these tough times. I wish you well

[Sleepyspoon]

Lol i just need to find one and stay outta trouble everything bad that happens is my fault idk if iv just become so desensitized from the life iv lived or what i find myself either attention seeking or going back to old life styles not just drugs herion and speed mostly used together i cant come out with the other stuff openly haha its hard to find one that can keep up with me

[Sleepyspoon]

Then i go back to this hating everything

[Sleepyspoon]

Update for anyone that may care im gonna call to schedule a apoinment for the doctor i relaspsed again but i am not in quite as bad shape as i the other night thank you al for thise who posted im hoping ill have people to talk to when i crash ...ps i got talking to my baby mamas auntie doesnt sound like a big deal but its a step closer to seeing my daughter im they all shut me out of the family cause of some my issues im hoping that should help me move on from her and and maybe if babymomma sees all this i can start seeing my daughter without going thru the courts cause im tired of fighting n i dont have the money yet but again everyone thank you i needed your support no matter what the hell i say
Wish me luck since i promise ill never touch dope again the only (not an excuse) the only reason i fell off the wagon is because the issues that went on between me n the mother after we split ...how do i show somone that im capable of change if she were to call me today im not sure what i would say i dont want to piss her off by running my mouth n just telling her whats a good way i can show her by action (as much as i miss her im not trying to get back with her just want to end this childish bull i would appreite it very much thank you for being there for me