[magicalprince]

I feel so sad and I don't know why.

I keep breaking down in tears and crying. It happens every few days out of nowhere I just suddenly start crying really hard.

Something is really missing in my life. I'm sure that's what this sadness is trying to tell me. But, I don't know what to do.

[Skeezyks]

I'm sorry you are feeling so sad. Here are links to some articles, from PsychCentral's archives, on the subject of what to do when you feel empty & lost. Hopefully some of the suggestions in these articles will be of some help:

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-you-feel-lost/

https://psychcentral.com/blog/when-y...dium=popular17

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/sext-...eling-nothing/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...t-angry-empty/

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...dium=popular17

https://blogs.psychcentral.com/child...dium=popular17

I wish you well...

[Shazerac]

Sounds like you are experiencing some sort of break through. Maybe it would help to not fight the tears and wait for you mind to tell what is wrong.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm sorry you feel so down.

[magicalprince]

Thank you @skeezyks it's really thoughtful of you to put together that list of articles.

I related especially to this part of one of those articles:

These parents respond to their children on the surface, while selectively, unpredictably rejecting and punishing their kids’ emotional responses. In addition, the parents may reward their children for being how they want them to be, and harshly reject or punish them for simply being, or feeling, themselves. When you grow up this way, since you are not permitted to “be” who you are, you develop a fragmented version of who you should be. You reject parts of yourself that your parents find unacceptable (including your feelings), and may experience yourself as perfect one day (when you’ve pleased your parents), and horrible or worthless the next (when you have not). The missing piece for this child, once grown up, is more than emotion; it’s also a cohesive sense of self.

I think this sadness may be a "piece" that I had to forget about all along. I realized just recently how my dad only showed me any love or attention when I was what he wanted me to be.

[magicalprince]

Originally Posted by Shazerac

Sounds like you are experiencing some sort of break through. Maybe it would help to not fight the tears and wait for you mind to tell what is wrong.

Thank you, that's probably true. It's so unpredictable but I'm trying to just feel it out and let the tears flow.

Thanks everyone for all the hugs