I'm a fake

You are really grieving the loss of your beloved Ebony.

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Wisper, you are no fake!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Every body needs some body some times! None of us are perfect, and we all have hurts, (You Included). We are all worthy, and deserving to feel that we belong.

I feel like I by being the traitor who took her into the vet and left her there for stuff to be done before the vet said he couldn't save her

You blame yourself and that feeling of guilt gives you so much pain.

I’m so sorry for the pain.

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I don’t blame you. We don’t blame you.



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It's important to allow yourself to grieve. it's not your fault that Ebony could not survive. You loved her and tried to get her help via the vet; that's the most any of us can do for our pets.

I have lost meaningful pets, too. My last dog passed 7 years ago. She was so very special that I have not yet been ok with replacing her. I do hope to have another someday and that day is getting closer; yet, I have needed this time to grieve.


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Wisper, My H last year found a very young black Lab puppy, and brought him home. He was maybe 5 weeks old, and had red ant bites all over him. At the time we thought he had been eating the ants to survive. Anyway I went to work on him. I went to our local feed and seed, and bought everything I needed to bring this puppy back, bc my H was so in love with him. I bought special skin stuff to clear up his ant bits, special food, nutra cal for vits, 5 sets of puppy shots, wormer, rabies shot ect… Took him to the vet several times, and fixed him. He grew very healthy, and was my H's best bud. When he was old enough, and very large by then, I set it up to have him nurted, and his dew claws removed. I took him to the vet, and dropped him off. I went home and waited. After a couple of hours, I got a call from the vet. My H's buddy never woke from the surgery. I had to brake this to my H, and it was horrable. My H took it so bad, and went and was very angry, and very vocal to the vet about it. That baby of my H's is buried on a hill next to my H's shop with a head stone with his name, about when he may have been born, and when we lost him. My H doesn't talk about him, but I know even now, even with us getting another, My H still hurts about loosing his buddy. I still feel guilty bc I was the one who set things up. I try to look at it as that puppy would have died if my H had not brought him home. We gave him the best we could while we had him, and the Good Lord decided that that puppy had done for my H, what ever the Good Lord had planned. My T had told me that I needed to work on letting go of all of the guilt I carry for every thing in my life. She said I shouldn't feel guilty for these things bc I had no control of any of the many things, and the out comes!!! It is the same with you, you didn't have any control of the outcome!!!!!!!