I don't deserve support

Or kindness

[Wild Coyote]

Of course you do deserve support and kindness.

Why are you saying I deserve support and kindness, Wild Coyote?

What did I do? I'm a lump of dirt.

[Wild Coyote]

You don't have to do anything.
You are worthy of support and of kindness because you are a human being.

Why are you feeling so unworthy?
I get down on myself in this same way sometimes.


WC

Originally Posted by whispershadow

Why are you saying I deserve support and kindness, Wild Coyote?

What did I do? I'm a lump of dirt.

but what did you do to think that people shouldn't support you

everyone on here deserves support, that includes you

idk ............... felt bad all day and feels like everyone's been getting at me all day over not being good enough

Originally Posted by whispershadow

idk ............... felt bad all day and feels like everyone's been getting at me all day over not being good enough

awww, we are here for you.
((((hugs))))
(by the way, I just noticed your sig)

love my emortal- she has an amazing range

I should be doing everything to make other people happy, raging

what I want don't even come into it

other people are more important than me

I'm just a lump of dirt.

Dirty scumbag.

and my mental health is less important than everyone else's needs

Originally Posted by whispershadow

and my mental health is less important than everyone else's needs

I don't think anyone feels like that about you

not on this site

I can't greive properly for Ebony

I'm not allowed

My furbaby was "just a cat"

I can always "replace" her apparently

I apparently should just take in another cat from the streets even if he/she already has a home

I won't do that though

Not fair on the owners

I'll go offline for now, try and make myself feel better

[marvin_pa]

If you feel the emotion, then you're not a fake. Other people's inability to express empathy & understanding, is more a reflection upon them, rather than you.

Grieving is an essentially personal experience - nobody but you can ever quite know that experience, or need to go through it.

Poor furbaby never deserved what the scumbags did to her before she went into rescue.

I miss her. I wish I could of saved her.

(((((Ebony))))) I love you, sweetpea and miss you

[ShadowGX]

I know how hard it is to lose a furry best friend. No matter what others say, you're allowed to grieve for them and you never have to "replace" them. I have new kitties now, but none will ever take the place of Blaze in my heart. People who say you can just replace them have no idea what it is to truly love an animal. Ignore those idiots. Better yet, feel sorry for them for having missed out on such a relationship.

Originally Posted by whispershadow

and my mental health is less important than everyone else's needs

that's how I feel outside the forum though

like everyone else has priority

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by whispershadow

I don't deserve support

Or kindness

You do deserve some love and support.It is the nicest thing anyone can do for someone.

I have nobody in real life that I can talk to.

Nobody understands how important Ebony was to me. Not even my mum and Mum loved Ebony and Ebony loved Mum and used to follow her around refusing to let her out of her sight when Mum came to visit (and Mum was the only person Ebony ever did that with, she followed me around a bit but not to the extent she did with Mum)

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm really sorry.

[xmascarol]

Originally Posted by whispershadow

I have nobody in real life that I can talk to.

Nobody understands how important Ebony was to me. Not even my mum and Mum loved Ebony and Ebony loved Mum and used to follow her around refusing to let her out of her sight when Mum came to visit (and Mum was the only person Ebony ever did that with, she followed me around a bit but not to the extent she did with Mum)

You can always talk to me.I understand I had a cat once who was hit by a hit and run driver she passed away .My family was heart broken.It makes me sick to know that someone could have been so cruel to run over a cat like that or any animal.

[Bill3]

(((((whispershadow)))))



(((((whispershadow)))))

Originally Posted by xmascarol

You can always talk to me.I understand I had a cat once who was hit by a hit and run driver she passed away .My family was heart broken.It makes me sick to know that someone could have been so cruel to run over a cat like that or any animal.

I'm sorry

Ebony wasn't run over, whoever hurt her so bad deliberate hit her across the ribs with something like a walking stick or something similar, she was always terrified of walking sticks, the second she saw a walking stick in anyone's hand she'd run and hide under the chair and look out with clear fear in her eyes even despite that, she let people handle her as long as they never tried to pick her up, if someone tried to pick her up she'd jump over their hands and fret or completely run away and hide and look at that person with fear while hiding somewhere

I miss her so much, I actually feel sick

[Bill3]

I’m so sorry for your devastating loss.

(((((whispershadow)))))

Just to be clear, we are certain she was abused before she got taken in by rescue, never at any point did anyone hurt her while she was in my care, I know this for sure, only time she ever left my sight was when I was out of the house for any reason, Ebony was scared of the outside world so wouldnt go outside

I held her at the end on the 2nd March as she past away and I can't eat properly even now and still think she's there then remember she's not