Emotions

I struggle so much with not seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I deal with physical and emotional chronic pain. I just wish most of the time the tomorrow would not come. I have been hospitalized twice this year. It only seems to give me a break for a week or so, but then I get so anxious about going home because the same challenges are there and have mabey grown. I feel as though I am not supporting my family as I am used to be doing.

I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. I've been hospitalized twice, for mental health issues, although not in the same year. And both of my experiences tell me just going home to all the same stuff that was there prior is tough. (I've been in the hospital for non-mental-health-related stuff as well. And coming home after that can be tough too.)

The first time I was on a psych ward, after I got out, I decided to go into a partial hospital program. It wasn't great. But it gave me someplace to be & something to do rather than just sit home, mull over my situation & wait for time to pass. The second time I just went home. It was tough too. But at least I had that previous experience to fall back on.

Hope things begin looking up for you soon...

I feel silly....I am having emotional upheaval at the moment, but have never been where you guys have.....I wish I could just say F*** it and go on.

You can't support anybody else if you don't support yourself first.