There is nothing in my life that is worthy. All my life has been just a waste of time and meaningless to me and to others. When I think about this, I feel more depressed that I continue wasting my life more by doing nothing. People of my age are married and have children and have stable jobs. I live alone and struggle financially with no one in my life. What a story!!

[Pavlov's Cat]

Originally Posted by Aimless Soul

There is nothing in my life that is worthy. All my life has been just a waste of time and meaningless to me and to others. When I think about this, I feel more depressed that I continue wasting my life more by doing nothing. People of my age are married and have children and have stable jobs. I live alone and struggle financially with no one in my life. What a story!!

I'm sorry you feel this way. Some people do struggle more with life and achieving milestones through no fault of their own, but it doesn't have to mean your life is wasted, even if you don't eventually get there.

How old are you, and what would you like to be doing?

Originally Posted by Aimless Soul

There is nothing in my life that is worthy. All my life has been just a waste of time and meaningless to me and to others. When I think about this, I feel more depressed that I continue wasting my life more by doing nothing. People of my age are married and have children and have stable jobs. I live alone and struggle financially with no one in my life. What a story!!

same here.

and what's even sadder in my case is not knowing what to do with my life or where I want to go

at my age I should really have some idea

but don't..

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're struggling, Aimless Soul Please, don't be so harsh on yourself. Lots of people struggle with what you've just mentioned, and it's not necessarely their fault. It surely isn't your fault here, especially if you have to deal with MI on top of all of this. Please, don't give up, you never know how life could turn up in the future... and in any case, your life IS worthy, regardless of everything else.

I am close to 40 than to 30. I would like to have a normal life where I feel I am a human being with relationships to feel I have a social and emotional support, and a stable job where I don't live in fear and anxiety all the time, while doing something meaningful and interesting. These are the two basic things I would like to have, but the more I think about my life and what I have achieved (which is nothing), the more I feel depressed to do anything.