I don't like the winter. I am very isolated, but in the winter I barely go out, which is very depressing. In the summer at least I would go for a walk in the park or around the neighborhood. I would ride my bike and see people (without talking to anyone) and nature. These days, I spend my days doing nothing at my apartment. No talking to anyone because I don't have friends and family is abroad. No working because I don't have a job. No going out because it's winter and it's very cold and slippery outside. I cannot read a book because I am too depressed to focus. I walk only few steps a day inside my apartment, otherwise I spend the day either sleeping or sitting. I try to kill time on YouTube and Netflix, but I still feel extremely bored. I may order some PC video games to distract myself, but my computer is not powerful for the good games. I don't know what to do. Sometimes I think I put myself in this isolation, others I think I was forced into it. I don't know, but I am losing my mind.

[stewartmays1]

i know how you feel im in the same boat but lately i decided to do something about it what works or at least helps is stitting down a making a daily planner i have made a list of things i can do like looking for work excsrsise ect and put this list were i can see it and do the plan every day. this gives me some purpose so whynot give it a try and see how it helps you good luck

I cannot think of anything I can do. I am way too depressed to register in the gym and be between people and exercise. My life has become so meaningless to do anything. I don't feel alive. I don't feel normal. I don't feel I have a purpose in this life. I am just wasting my time. Sitting and waiting for the dark angel to take my last breath. This is my life.

Originally Posted by Sans Nom

I cannot think of anything I can do. I am way too depressed to register in the gym and be between people and exercise. My life has become so meaningless to do anything. I don't feel alive. I don't feel normal. I don't feel I have a purpose in this life. I am just wasting my time. Sitting and waiting for the dark angel to take my last breath. This is my life.

I know how you feel. All of December I did not go to the gym once. The girls are waiting for me there. Last time I returned I got lots of hugs and praise, but I can't make myself get dressed and go. My home life is normal, like I get up and dressed everyday and keep to a routine (which has been less strict this month). I am glad for a new month in a new year. Making lists and writing my schedule helps me, but every week something goes wrong and I need to make adjustments, which is so frusterating. Finding ways to get out into the world also helps, but then when I'm out I remember how much I don't fit in and how different I am. Spending too much time on the computer is no good. I know that. Whether it be games, forums, youtube, whatever, no good. Physical activity and social interactions needs to be a part of daily life. I like sitting by the window and looking out onto the trees. That always makes me feel better

[WishfulThinker66]

What about making the most of it and getting outside anyway? I have a set of snowshoes for the snow and shoe crampons so I don't slip and fall. Even a short walk up and down the street gets you some much needed fresh air.

I suggest adding some vitamin D to your cocktail and using a therapy lamp for 10 or so minutes daily (if you are on assistance you may qualify for reimbursement of one of these). Having light, no matter the source, is vitally important to your mental and physical health. You are not doing yourself a favour remaining holed up in your home. I guarantee this is a reason for your low mood and that you risk outright depression. It is time to take some action to prevent this.

[mountainstream]