[Fuzzybear]

I can remember word for word what was written in the notes the first time I asked for ''assistance'' from a ''professional''
It was very ironic since I was not ''desperate'' and was actually ''coping'' ok..... had I known what a psycho social minefield I was stepping into I would have stayed far far away...
Basically everything I said was invalidated. Admittedly I had severe anxiety but I was used to putting up with that.....

this is just some of what was written
''no confidence, perceives as problem'' …….. HUH?
….
''calls it a phobia'' ….. HUH?

ok, I cannot be bothered to type out any more of that inaccurate garbage that painted me almost as if I had ''no intelligence'' and certainly as an ''undeserving patient'' who the practititioner had Zero empathy for or undersanding of....

oh yes and

''paranoid about...''

i'm not even going to say what it was I was apparently ''paranoid about'' as it was clinically WRONG as well as extremely insulting.

I am posting for some understanding and validation that is so sadly lacking in my location irl. I am NOT posting to be told to ''move on'' or for some prescriptive, basic advice (for example re ''meds'' I do not wish to talk about ''meds'' or to be asked basic questions since again, that is all that is offered in my location irl and I find it very unhelpful. Well, to be honest, they rarely even ask me questions but that is due to ''time issues'' and I have remained ''safe'' for a long time despite severe SU ideation. There is not much they can say in 5 minutes which is all that is offered. And I have greater insight into myself than the most wonderful doctor ever could achieve in less than 5 minutes in 12 months or more...

sadly, something like this is only too common.

I can not count the times where either their is something in my notes relating to an illness I don't even have, or something that's scaled down- like it's made out not to be as serious as it is

hell: I've even been mixed up with another patients recorrds (several times), making it extremely hard to get the correct treatment.

belive it or not, their are still some medical professionals who insist

Possible trigger:

that I'm my dead brother

what the

that is all

[Buffy01]

Originally Posted by Fuzzybear

I can remember word for word what was written in the notes the first time I asked for ''assistance'' from a ''professional''
It was very ironic since I was not ''desperate'' and was actually ''coping'' ok..... had I known what a psycho social minefield I was stepping into I would have stayed far far away...
Basically everything I said was invalidated. Admittedly I had severe anxiety but I was used to putting up with that.....

this is just some of what was written
''no confidence, perceives as problem'' …….. HUH?
….
''calls it a phobia'' ….. HUH?

ok, I cannot be bothered to type out any more of that inaccurate garbage that painted me almost as if I had ''no intelligence'' and certainly as an ''undeserving patient'' who the practititioner had Zero empathy for or undersanding of....

oh yes and

''paranoid about...''

i'm not even going to say what it was I was apparently ''paranoid about'' as it was clinically WRONG as well as extremely insulting.

I am posting for some understanding and validation that is so sadly lacking in my location irl. I am NOT posting to be told to ''move on'' or for some prescriptive, basic advice (for example re ''meds'' I do not wish to talk about ''meds'' or to be asked basic questions since again, that is all that is offered in my location irl and I find it very unhelpful. Well, to be honest, they rarely even ask me questions but that is due to ''time issues'' and I have remained ''safe'' for a long time despite severe SU ideation. There is not much they can say in 5 minutes which is all that is offered. And I have greater insight into myself than the most wonderful doctor ever could achieve in less than 5 minutes in 12 months or more...

I completely understand how you feel. I feel this way all the time

[June55]

If only we could doctor ourselves and pick up certain pills from vending machines. And have it work so simply. I know what I want from the doctor just don’t want to ask them or explain the why to them etc.

Fuzzybear you are the best at supporting and understanding. I hope you feel some of that back too.