Resistance Wall

I've been resisting an assignment for school because it is asking me to look at parts of me that I have run from. And now I am being asked to confront the hard stuff. I've been wrestling with this assignment for a week!!! And I keep getting more frustrated and irritated. I can't turn to my mentor because I'm afraid she will say I'm not ready for this path. I can't hear that right now. I don't want to be blocked from my dreams yet again!!!!!!! No one IRL knows what's happening, and that's an issue. But I don't want to be perceived as weak! Power makes me feel good. And that's a bigger issue. I don't want this assignment. I just need to write something but it has to be authentic. My assignment is due by tonight, I have 9 hours 22 minutes to get it in. And I'm blocked!!!

I don't want to give up. But I'm afraid I'll have too. And right now I can't face that.

Be brave and just do the assignment. Take the risk. Tell them you avoided your brave risk taking warrior part of yourself.

I think that being authentic is what is important. ''Strong'' and ''weak'' are just words. ''Strong'' relative to what? They are comparisons, judgments, not useful. Be brave and do the assignment that scares you. Power makes you feel good? I wonder what power means to you. I think you have the power inside, the warrior part of you (the protector?)

The wall came tumbling down this week!!! I was able to turn in two of four assignments due today and tomorrow. I feel at peace, no longer distressed. Thank you all!!