How are you coping today? #3

I feel like my emotions are running all over the place.

I’m doing good today. I got everything asked that I needed to ask my doctor. Right down to the ear infection I felt I had. Then I was assertive with my surgeon and got the answer I wanted. I learned in my IOP about assertiveness and the other ones so I knew how to approach my requests politely.

I am busy and tired. I am doing well despite this. Life goes on, and I hope to continue living well!

I’m doing good today. I went to the store and then just hung out. I had a FedEx delivery I’ve been anticipating. I’ve had a lot of soda today but I’m trying to eat healthy for the most part. I have a lot of fruits and vegetables that I bought all at one time.

I’ve had this new weird thing lately where I feel physically dirty a lot. Like I brushed my teeth twice this morning.

But today was good. I’m a bit tired right now but it’s not a big deal.

Woke up around 12:15 AM--It has been a long time since I have done this. Though I fell asleep easily last night (8 PM?). Took .25 mg of alprazolam in hopes of getting tired enough to go back to bed. I usually take this dose about 3X a week. I know why I woke up. Because of dealing with my son (I did what I needed to do but being disappointed in him takes a toll)--my body reacts and it likely caused my scleritis to activate--a disorder where the sclera (whites of my eyes) get severely inflamed and red--I become sensitive to sunlight, teary eyed and feel pressure in my eyes. Scleritis is believed to be the result of the body's immune system overreacting. I had some dexamethasone pills left from my chemotherapy and I took one the day before yesterday--which almost immediately helped. When it started coming back yesterday--it took another and it subsided.) Scleritis can be dangerous for your eyes but steroids (dexamathozone) treat the condition effectively but also likely make me manic so I hope the scleritis does not come back today. Feel fully awake and energized right now and enjoying a cup of coffee which is mostly decaf (ran out of decaf but had enough left to make 2 cups of coffee which is 2/3 decaf ).

I had a meltdown this morning but I feel a little bit better now. I've been talking to my online therapist.

I have been having a lot of dark thoughts about mothers day.

i can't understandd how their's a mother's day, but their's no day to recognize people who were abused by their family.

****ing messed up

I been having trouble sleeping if I am not going to bed at three in the morning m? Then I am waking up at three in the morning. I feel like I am going emotionally numb where I don’t want to feel anymore because of some much mental abuse.

I’m doing well today. Kinda bored. I got my injection early this morning which caused this weird physical reaction about half an hour later. I just got really nauseated and light headed. I took a zofran which helped. My moods are fine though so that’s good.

I think I'm coping well. My cat is a bit annoying this morning, but my mood is good and I'm trying to be patient with him.

I’m doing well today. My moods seem to have really leveled out. It took 6 weeks but I feel much more stable then I used to feel. I have felt a bit nauseated this afternoon. That is nothing new though. Zofran is wonderful with that and my Xanax things have been good lately.

I'm having a difficult morning, but I'm drinking coffee and posting on the forum. I'm hoping that helps me feel better.

I'm coping ok right now.

So busy at work and felt a bit overwhelmed at times, which I haven't felt in a while. But I'm okay and coped by not doing much after work and a short nap!

Going to put some veg in the oven to roast with olive oil and herbs and take a short walk out.

I don’t know. I feel weird today. Right now I’m in between feeling like I want to go inpatient, taking a Xanax, or eat a cosmic brownie.

I'm coping well. I'm keeping myself busy with fun activities. I just made Creamy Chicken Noodle soup. It's one of my favorite comfort foods. And I'm relaxing with iced coffee. So all in all, I'm doing very well.

Decently, decently, decently.

I didn’t cope very well last night. I took cough syrup but only to sleep. Today I’ve had a lot of caffeine and I’ve been in bed a lot of the day. So maybe I’m not coping that great either today. But my moods are in check and I’m not in a bad mood. My anxiety is now under control with Xanax. Which makes everything better. I know Xanax isn’t a great coping skill but I am prescribed 1mil twice a day so I am following the directions on the bottle. Most of the time I cut it up anyways so I’m not taking 1mil at a time.

I think I'm ok enough right now.

I am getting annoyed with my kid and husband today. Husband isn't replying to my messages (he's home, but downstairs which I can't get to without his help) and my toddler is just being a toddler.

taking necessary steps towards self-reliance, also annoyed

I'm not coping well today. I'm unable to sleep and I'm stress-eating.

Not too good. I over did it on the caffeine this morning. Under did it on food. I had some triggering stuff happen this morning. I tried going to the stores this afternoon and I ended up with a massive anxiety attack and then when I got home I took 2 mil of Xanax after taking 1mil right before going out. I ate something when I got home and now I feel ok anxiety wise but I am a bit groggy.

I'm still having a difficult time. My only option for coping is to go to bed.

I'm doing okay, going to try to be a bit better organised today.