How are you coping today? #3

I didn't sleep very well and I am still upset and stressed. I'm trying to cope by going through workbooks I found on Amazon. One is on anxiety and the other is on depression. I'm practicing mindfulness but it is hard.

I'm feeling great! Life is going well. I am compliant and feel fine. Life could not be better.

Doing well. I volunteered today and that often puts me in a good mood.

I’m coping well today. I ended up donating a lot of my soda and all of my Mountain Dew, which was the source of my anxiety yesterday, to a food pantry. I had other stuff to donate too. Canned vegetables and canned fruit and other stuff like that. It made me feel good to donate it instead of throwing it out. Therapy went well. I like her. Plus my old therapist emailed her so now they can discuss things which I do want them to do.

Then my mom went to this store to sell these 3 action figures that I got for Christmas in 2019. I didn’t make it a priority to sell them. I thought they were worthless and I’d only get $5 for all of them. I actually had them in the thrift store donation pile. But my mom took them to this place and I ended up getting $30 total for all of them. So I was able to get an Amazon gift card so I can buy stuff.

So yeah today was much better than yesterday.

Hang on in there!

I'm doing a little better today. I was able to work on a project that brought me some enjoyment. I have an appointment today that I am nervous about. I plan to do some exercises in my anxiety workbook and meditate.

I'm doing well!! Life continues and is getting better! I am so excited about the possibility of applying for grad school. I hope I succeed and do my best!!

I'm really tired today.

I’m coping well. I had a couple bottle of kombucha and that last one I had 15 minutes ago is making me feel weird. I was told that the alcohol is so minimal it won’t interfere with any of my meds. But I still feel kinda buzzed and anxious and twitchy and short of breath from it. But I’m coping well today overall.

My emotions have been all over the place. I been feeling down again. I been trying to distract myself doing rearranging and cleaning up.

I'm tired of constantly having to overcome disappointment, and not feeling very lighthearted. It seems like every time I'm happy there is always someone or something ready to ruin it.

I made a couple of large bottles of kombucha which will be ready on the 1st. I flavored this batch with orange juice when I bottled it and hope the alcohol is not too high since I no longer drink but want to be able to create my own probiotics. I started a new batch yesterday which I plan to flavor with concord grape juice after the initial fermentation is done. The flavoring is added when you bottle the brew. We still have loads of Orion beer bottles from way back during our drinking days. My H saved them for making his own beer but he no longer drinks either.

I tried distracting myself with a movie this morning. The movie was a scary one. I didn't realize it would be so. But it was good entertainment and a good distraction. I'm doing alright today.

I'm feeling down today. Tired and sad. I've been on and off like this throughout the week. I perked up when I volunteered the other day. And working on schoolwork today also helped. Chatting with my friend today helped too. I'm glad I called him bc I didn't feel like talking but I'm glad I did.

Hi,
I’ve only been on here talking about my daughter, but today I’m very sad, hopeless and thinking what’s the point because I’ve been going to therapy and in the course of talking I told her my marriage needs help. There’s basically no touching of any kind and no kind words of appreciation. I told her I’m quite a sensitive, needy person and I need affirmations. I guess that’s my love language. So tonight I braved talking this through with my husband and I admitted I needed more written or verbal praise/ words of love and I told him I need him to share what he needs with me but after this conversation which involved me taking a huge emotional risk, he’s gone to bed without further discussion. And I know he’s the kind where he’ll get up tomorrow snd pretend this never happened and we’ll carry on as normal. I’m so sad. I just want love and attention. I’m crying out for it. My heart hurts.

Struggling quite a bit today. Mostly worries about the future. I need to make some pretty big changes and it's all overwhelming. I'm about ready to give up.

I've been going through one of my workbooks and practicing mindfulness. It's helping me deal with some difficult emotions. I've also been eating mindfully. My food tastes so much better. I feel fuller and more satisfied after I eat.

I'm doing well and keeping busy. I should exercise more but am writing messages to schools and looking up more information about the field I'm interested in applying. So, life is bustling. I feel fine, but a little anxious. I am waiting for the replies of the schools I wrote to see if I am competitive as an applicant. We shall see!

I’m glad the therapist blew us off and didn’t see us like he said he would. I think I’ll sweep this meltdown under the rug and not address it when we finally do speak to him. Maybe I’ll stop seeing him altogether, as he isn’t helping anyway.

Doing okay, worked today, was worried because I knew we'd be short staffed but actually it was okay.

I didn't sleep well last night because I had a sore foot but my energy is okay today.

I think I’m doing well today. My moods aren’t out of control. I took my 2mil of Xanax so my anxiety is now under control. I just feel super sad about my old therapist and I asked my mom why I wasn’t her over yet and my mom said it’s because I built up a relationship with my old one and I’ve only met with the new one twice. My mom thinks I’m having separation anxiety. My mom validated my feelings though which which made me feel good.

Doing good. I went walking and to my meditation group today. I have school work later and am not sure if I'll go to my parents house to eat dinner first. I probably will. It's nice to relax right now.

My son finally found a place to stay with inexpensive rent and he found a job that pays better. Bringing him some of his things this morning.

That’s great news!

I’m reframing and accepting how things are with h, and hoping to stop having these fight/flight meltdowns. It’s embarrassing. I don’t see it through by ending it. I keep going back, so I really should stop trying to run.

Also, my mom called and said, ‘Are you going to stay mad at me forever?’ As a way to break the ice. That was as much as an apology as I’ll ever get. It was great of her to reach out and I welcomed it and we had a good conversation about nothing in particular. This is big change for the better!