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Grand Poohbah
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#21
My bedtime schedule has shifted. I have been falling asleep between 8:30 and 10 PM and waking up between 4 and 5 AM. This is a better schedule for my activities. I mostly just grocery shop and work around the house (though I have been teaching 1-3 online ESL classes a week). I start my online job grading student achievement tests on Monday. I am planning to work five hours a day M-F. Was given two different assignments so I have work until mid June. After that, I am hoping to increase the ESL classes I teach. I lost many students last year because I closed nearly all my slots during chemotherapy. I only taught one student because they kept making requests for classes. I still teach this student and have taught over 100 classes with that student. I am also waiting for my hair to grow a bit more and hopefully it will be there in mid June. I feel like having a good appearance in the ESL job is important. The company regularly requests (but doesn't penalize you if you don't) that their teachers upload videos showing samples of some our teaching moments and other things. I have done this before but stopped when chemotherapy altered my appearance. Still wearing hats to class......
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#22
I'm doing okay and got on with a few jobs I needed to.
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#23
I am reading the Codependent No More book, and it is helping me to simply disengage from the struggle that continues daily with h. If it is me, and I am not capable of being in this, why am I in it?
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#24
I've been too tired to know. I kept falling asleep today.
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#25
I've been sleeping off and on most of the day. I don't really feel well emotionally and the sleep is helping.
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#26
Coping well really. No great dramas or complaints, and so that can make for a manageable day. I lead a very simplified life now, though.
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#27
I'm tired. I guess it's time to go back to bed. I've been working on chores. I wish I was done. I'm not coping all that well.
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#28
I am coping by reading here at the forums & on the internet for answers to my questions.
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#29
Awfully.
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#30
I'm not coping well. I can't sleep and I'm upset. My day was crappy and I don't see tomorrow being much better. My cat is crying. It's the middle of the night and I just want to go to bed.
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#31
Made it through yesterday and the night somehow...
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#32
As I begin this day I seem to be coping ok.
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Grand Poohbah
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#33
Love our cats but I am also allergic to them. One or two tend to crawl up on my bed at night, while I am asleep. Washing the covers helps but with all the rain we are getting, I have to take it easy with how much I use the dishwasher, washer, tub and shower (we are on a septic). My allergies are the worst when I do extra cleaning and dusting like I did Friday.
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#34
i'm not really... just been h**l lately. i was going to post a new thread in here about something that happened the other day ---- then i spent over an hour debating if i was actually going to, part of me thinking its stupid/who cares..... and now, i won't.
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#35
I’m going to clean and dispose of the clutter in the house. I’m going to paint and replace the carpet and the furniture that needs to get thrown out. I had planned to move from here and not replace furniture, but that’s not happening. None of the plans I wanted for myself are going to be happening. I’m not going to make them happen. I’m going to resign myself to what I already have and make it comfortable and refreshed. I need to have a blank page and good attitude.
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#36
I decided to read my favorite author Nora Roberts Angel Falls to escape all of my bad emotions and problems.
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#37
I tried to take a break from here because my emotions and thinking were out of control. I don't know that I've ever felt this afraid or negative before. I didn't want to cause anyone any problems, so I stepped away to try to deal with things. That didn't work. Things got worse. I'll try to control myself so as not to be too much.
Today, things are a little better and a little worse. I know that probably doesn't make a lot of sense, but does feel accurate. I'm trying to do my best for my pups, because that takes my focus off me. I'm really scared and unsure how to get better, and maybe I can't. Sorry to be so much trouble. Thanks to everyone. |
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