[black-roses]

So there's a teacher that has problems with me my health and computing likes being harder on me then everyone. I noticed lots of people handing there assignments in early but she doesn't complain. I upload all my assignments all at once she makes it a thing to name me in class and complain that I sent all my assignments in at that irritated her or something. So I've been feeling very stressed etc worried I won't pass the course because of someone who doesn't like me and is unfair to me. People don't understand why I'm so upset about it but like every Tafe I've been too has kicked me off for like having mental health issues. I just feel like I'm being victimised again and when I feel victimised I start to get angry and depressed and ruminate. My sister told me off because I keep on going on about this teacher apparently its been like 5 days and I can't cope because I'm angry and just over it people being disrespectful and rude. It's just they say they won't discriminate with people who have mental illness etc and then they remove me out of courses 4 times. Yeah the last course I passed nobody was gonna remove me but people should understand why I feel this way. It's just I don't know what I can do about this level of anxiety I find it hard to sleep. I keep thinking about all the things I want. I don't feel any closer to being respected or being appreciated. I'm always treated like my existence it's bothersome to others it was the same growing up. My mother blamed me and Daniela for being in an abusive relationship with dad because she couldn't leave him she had two children. It just induces a deep sadness in me that nobody really thinks I have value or want to help me etc. I'm just thinking I'm really over it and I definitely won't go back to that Tafe next year. I really want this certificate so I can work and not have to study anymore. All of this stress just makes me think it's not worth it. I don't want to go back to study. I think that being close to people is a waste of time because I'm just a burden that just takes up people's time. I'm scared I don't know what to do with my life. I'm just sad and have been for a few days now obsessing about the whole situation.

[DoroMona]

So sorry you're feeling that way. I also ruminate, it's a terrible thing. Your situation sounds very complicated and stressful. I can only try to comment a little about your tension with the teacher. This is just my own strategy and from my own experience, so it may not work for you, but when I'm either struggling in a class or a teacher expresses displeasure, I always try to talk to them one-on-one to resolve it, even if I have to apologize (whether I feel I should apologize or not) and be self-deprecating. "Oh, I'm really sorry, it didn't occur to me that I couldn't submit them like that, you said XYZ and I guess I'm just really literal. Anyway, so ideally how should I be doing it?" And so on... If the moment has passed, you can find another excuse to interact with her, like to ask a question and show you're engaged? I think if you're apologetic and/or show her respect, it might smooth things over and also might reduce your anxiety. When I apologize to people (whether I mean it or not) and they say everything is OK, I often feel much better. Your goal is to pass this class. Getting this teacher more on your side is just part of the coursework. Anyway, don't give up on your studies! Getting through classes, acquiring certificates, etc. is so important in terms of improving one's life and creating opportunities for oneself. It's also great to want things, and know what one wants. Make a list to help keep your determination up?

[black-roses]

I'm not apologizing to her I've done nothing wrong lots of people finished off there work fast but she didn't embarass them infront of the class. I guess she doesn't like me I don't like her either but I've never been rude to her or humiliated her. She should be professional what she did is unprofessional and rude. I have nothing to say to her I really don't want to talk to her at all.

[RockyRoad007]

Fact: Your teacher was rude and unprofessional.
Fact: If you maintain your attitude, there's a possibility this course won't end well for you.

Do you want to be right or do you want to be happy and complete this course?

DoroMona made some wise points.
There is also a good chance you will never have to see this teacher again once you finish your schooling.
If you're willing to stroke your teacher's ego, you have a much better chance of coming out the winner. And by winner, I mean completing this course.

Simply ask your teacher what you can do differently. Does she have a preference of having assignments uploaded as each one is completed? Tell her you didn't realize that, but can do that from now on. Right now, your teacher has the upper hand, and you need to play your hand accordingly.

[black-roses]

It doesn't matter now it's been uploaded all she has to do is mark it.

[black-roses]

The point is a lot of people worked ahead and she never complained that they uploaded it all at once so her treatment is unfair so no I'm not going to stroke someone's ego when she's the one who's playing favourites I'll die on this hill but I'd rather keep my integrity then be a kiss ***.

[black-roses]

The thoughts I've wasted on this teacher when really I should be focusing on my english and maths she is not worth the anxiety. I think I'm going to prioritise my maths and English and just not even think about it. That's the wisest thing why am I even wasting thoughts on her why does she trigger me so much it doesn't even matter in the grand scheme.