[indigo1015]

I can’t sleep again… I really hate being in a society where you’re expected to be awake during the day and asleep at night lol. I’m definitely a night owl lol. I called my dad and wished him a happy Father’s Day… he decided to give me a lecture on the Revolutionary War. LOL. I get that he was a professor, but it was very tedious as I knew a fair amount of what he recited already and anyway, I wasn’t terribly interested at that moment. I love my dad, but his less apppealing traits are really becoming exacerbated in his old age. For one thing, he’s a real snob. For another, he is incapable of understanding why anyone would want to be anything different from him or live differently than he does. Every time I tell him this he gets all defensive, saying, “what’s wrong with the way I live?” NOTHING is wrong with it, for ****’s sake. But people are different. For me personally, his yuppie lifestyle would not work. Mine certainly isn’t for me right now LOL. At least he liked the present I sent him.

I’m looking for a new job— I’m sick of this. I love my team and my coworkers, but we need more people. We need more people NOW. And it’s only going to get worse come flu season. We’re slammed and we just can’t do it. I can’t do it. Also, I have a text on file from my pharmacy manager from when I was first hired, promising me my pay would increase once I got certified in administering immunization, and although it did increase slightly, it did not to the amount she had specified when we were discussing compensation. The unfortunate reality is that the compensation and increases in such are determined by the union, not by her. But she should not have made a promise she couldn’t keep. I just really don’t care anymore and I’m super stressed and burnt out from this job. I really don’t want to do pharmacy at all anymore. I have looked at art-related jobs, but I think I will have better luck getting one once I start taking courses this fall and building connections in the art field.

I’ve decided not to continue with my personal training. I am aware I’m in a six month contract, but I don’t think it’s working out. I don’t think I’m making any headway, I don’t enjoy it, and I just don’t feel it’s what I need right now. I fully comprehend that training sessions are not done for the sole purpose of enjoyment, but if I’m not seeing results, why on earth should I continue with it? Clearly something is not working, and when I aready have a job that makes me miserable, why add this as well? My trainer is great, but again, I don’t think this is what I need right now.

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[Yaowen]

I'm so sorry that burdens, and burdens and more burdens are piled on top of you when any one of them is an ordeal in itself. It is great that you help people in your pharmacy work but I can definitely see how it could wear a person down and drain all their joy of living. Parents can sometimes be an overwhelming burden even when they don't want to be. I know this from sad personal experience.

I hope you will be able to make a smooth and painless transition to work you enjoy. You mention art and that is noble work.

Wish I knew what to say to ease your distress but sadly I am at a loss. Today and in the coming days I hope members here will see your post and will have something really helpful to say to you. I regret that I do not really know what to say except that I am rooting for you!