[black-roses]

When I was 12 years old I walked in to my dad watching porn with my sister next to me she was 14. It is like an image that has been burnt into my brain and like very weird and funny that he like hates my uncle for hitting on me.. Like my dad is why I don't like really care for like men and they're opinion on my sexuality why would I when he'd contradict me he be like wear more clothes when I did he would still complain. It just made me think my dad is not all that good in the head like he saw women like actual objects. Like I want to know why a woman wearing more clothes makes her more worthy of respect and why a woman with less clothes is disgusting and worthless. Deserves to be mistreated and abused. I wonder what did me and Daniela do to deserve to walk into my dad watching an X rated movie? We were kids. The first time I saw a woman's vagina I was like 10 and it was because I opened the glove compartment and saw a vagina it was a random woman's vagina. It's affected how I saw my sexuality I saw it as men just want an excuse to mistreat women and then be like oh it's because of whatever reason... In saying that I realised I'd be treated the same from my family. I was a child I should of felt safe I didn't need to know what sex was.