[lynatsunlakes]

Hi...
Thought I would share my story. It is one of hope lost...then hope found.
I had Major Depression, Gen. Anxiety, and PTSD for over 14 years. I had gone through violent physical abuse as a child until I left home at 18 yrs. At 30 yrs old, I went through a particularly nasty divorce. Then at age 40, I had to be a whistle blower for a sexual predator at the school I taught at. (the repercussions are STILL felt)
I had never dealt with the abuse or divorce and the situation at my school brought me low, my self confidence and identity gone. I did what I was taught to do in my family~~block it out. The problem is that in blocking out those feelings, it had a devastating effect on me being able to feel the GOOD feelings (all the way down to my heart). I have been hospitalized 23 times for suicide attempts (15) or suicidal feelings. Most were for 3-4 days at the VA, but some were for 30-90 day stays at private mental hospitals throughout the US. NOTHING WORKED!!
Then...the last place I went had a group that I had not had before. It was called Trauma Therapy. It was for 6 weeks, one complete day a week, and only 4-6 people were in the group. Unfortunately, I qualified, but it was the key to my success.
The therapy was based on having to relive the trauma and the same emotions that I experienced the first time. It was VERY difficult, very painful, but I would do it all again if needed. What was so strange for me was that the success didn't come until about 2 weeks after finishing the therapy. I was just going through the day and I suddenly realized that I wasn't haunted by my past trauma. It was finally in the past. What I believe happened was that it took a couple weeks for my sub-conscience to fully process all the therapy, feelings, etc. Whew!
Why aren't more therapists trained in Trauma Therapy and why aren't more of them using this? Not sure...maybe it's not the current pop psychology...I don't know. But think about giving this a chance. After more than 14 years of a wasted life, I haven't had depression for 2 years. I'm starting up a new business, and I'm in love again with my husband. Are all my problems gone? Of course not. But there are no more symptoms of my depression, anxiety, or PTSD. Amazing...
From my heart to yours...

Good for you, lynatsunlakes. You are an inspiration.

[sundog]

Thanks for sharing your inspiring story! (((((lynatsunlakes)))) Well done for hanging in there and coming out the other side. Congratulations on your healing

[billieJ]

Congrats and gratitude, lyna. I am thankful that you had this experience.

[Maria38Divine]

Wow! Thanks for sharing your experience. After years of struggling with depression on my own, I finally sought medical intervention last year. I quit for a couple months, but then resumed in January after hitting rockbottom just before New Years. I was honestly thinking of quitting again because I haven't been seeing the changes I want to see - the therapy sessions are too far apart and too short. But I'm going to keep at it until I find the right therapy. Thanks for inspiring me.

[SnickersMomma]

Originally Posted by lynatsunlakes

Hi...
Thought I would share my story. It is one of hope lost...then hope found.
I had Major Depression, Gen. Anxiety, and PTSD for over 14 years. I had gone through violent physical abuse as a child until I left home at 18 yrs. At 30 yrs old, I went through a particularly nasty divorce. Then at age 40, I had to be a whistle blower for a sexual predator at the school I taught at. (the repercussions are STILL felt)
I had never dealt with the abuse or divorce and the situation at my school brought me low, my self confidence and identity gone. I did what I was taught to do in my family~~block it out. The problem is that in blocking out those feelings, it had a devastating effect on me being able to feel the GOOD feelings (all the way down to my heart). I have been hospitalized 23 times for suicide attempts (15) or suicidal feelings. Most were for 3-4 days at the VA, but some were for 30-90 day stays at private mental hospitals throughout the US. NOTHING WORKED!!
Then...the last place I went had a group that I had not had before. It was called Trauma Therapy. It was for 6 weeks, one complete day a week, and only 4-6 people were in the group. Unfortunately, I qualified, but it was the key to my success.
The therapy was based on having to relive the trauma and the same emotions that I experienced the first time. It was VERY difficult, very painful, but I would do it all again if needed. What was so strange for me was that the success didn't come until about 2 weeks after finishing the therapy. I was just going through the day and I suddenly realized that I wasn't haunted by my past trauma. It was finally in the past. What I believe happened was that it took a couple weeks for my sub-conscience to fully process all the therapy, feelings, etc. Whew!
Why aren't more therapists trained in Trauma Therapy and why aren't more of them using this? Not sure...maybe it's not the current pop psychology...I don't know. But think about giving this a chance. After more than 14 years of a wasted life, I haven't had depression for 2 years. I'm starting up a new business, and I'm in love again with my husband. Are all my problems gone? Of course not. But there are no more symptoms of my depression, anxiety, or PTSD. Amazing...
From my heart to yours...

You have an encouraging story.....thanks for sharing. I was wondering how does one go about finding a 30-60 day private mental hospital? My youngest son, has been to the local mental health hospital for 4 days, but come back home and is going to the once a week therapy session seems like such a long drawn out method.
I think most people deal with trauma by blocking it out. But that is like blocking it inside of ones self. Thanks again.

[surfinflip]

SnickersMomma: What general area are you looking to get help for your son? I'm not sure, but I may be able to give you some ideas if I know the general area you want to send him.

[Yodastew]

Thank you.

[painhurtsme]

thank you, you are an insperation.

[Dalriada]

Thank you. You give me hope!

[rbnzegg]

New member here! How do I access and post to a "live" discussion?

[TerryL]

Originally Posted by lynatsunlakes

Hi...
Thought I would share my story. It is one of hope lost...then hope found.
I had Major Depression, Gen. Anxiety, and PTSD for over 14 years. I had gone through violent physical abuse as a child until I left home at 18 yrs. At 30 yrs old, I went through a particularly nasty divorce. Then at age 40, I had to be a whistle blower for a sexual predator at the school I taught at. (the repercussions are STILL felt)
I had never dealt with the abuse or divorce and the situation at my school brought me low, my self confidence and identity gone. I did what I was taught to do in my family~~block it out. The problem is that in blocking out those feelings, it had a devastating effect on me being able to feel the GOOD feelings (all the way down to my heart). I have been hospitalized 23 times for suicide attempts (15) or suicidal feelings. Most were for 3-4 days at the VA, but some were for 30-90 day stays at private mental hospitals throughout the US. NOTHING WORKED!!
Then...the last place I went had a group that I had not had before. It was called Trauma Therapy. It was for 6 weeks, one complete day a week, and only 4-6 people were in the group. Unfortunately, I qualified, but it was the key to my success.
The therapy was based on having to relive the trauma and the same emotions that I experienced the first time. It was VERY difficult, very painful, but I would do it all again if needed. What was so strange for me was that the success didn't come until about 2 weeks after finishing the therapy. I was just going through the day and I suddenly realized that I wasn't haunted by my past trauma. It was finally in the past. What I believe happened was that it took a couple weeks for my sub-conscience to fully process all the therapy, feelings, etc. Whew!
Why aren't more therapists trained in Trauma Therapy and why aren't more of them using this? Not sure...maybe it's not the current pop psychology...I don't know. But think about giving this a chance. After more than 14 years of a wasted life, I haven't had depression for 2 years. I'm starting up a new business, and I'm in love again with my husband. Are all my problems gone? Of course not. But there are no more symptoms of my depression, anxiety, or PTSD. Amazing...
From my heart to yours...

How did you find the group? Wasn't it difficult to relive the traumas? I have events I am afraid to relive because I was at fault but I am held hostage by them and am trying to find relief.

[alwaysrejoice]

maybe something will help me i have been depressed my whole life, even as a young child.

[jk2833]

Originally Posted by lynatsunlakes

Hi...
Thought I would share my story. It is one of hope lost...then hope found.
I had Major Depression, Gen. Anxiety, and PTSD for over 14 years. I had gone through violent physical abuse as a child until I left home at 18 yrs. At 30 yrs old, I went through a particularly nasty divorce. Then at age 40, I had to be a whistle blower for a sexual predator at the school I taught at. (the repercussions are STILL felt)
I had never dealt with the abuse or divorce and the situation at my school brought me low, my self confidence and identity gone. I did what I was taught to do in my family~~block it out. The problem is that in blocking out those feelings, it had a devastating effect on me being able to feel the GOOD feelings (all the way down to my heart). I have been hospitalized 23 times for suicide attempts (15) or suicidal feelings. Most were for 3-4 days at the VA, but some were for 30-90 day stays at private mental hospitals throughout the US. NOTHING WORKED!!
Then...the last place I went had a group that I had not had before. It was called Trauma Therapy. It was for 6 weeks, one complete day a week, and only 4-6 people were in the group. Unfortunately, I qualified, but it was the key to my success.
The therapy was based on having to relive the trauma and the same emotions that I experienced the first time. It was VERY difficult, very painful, but I would do it all again if needed. What was so strange for me was that the success didn't come until about 2 weeks after finishing the therapy. I was just going through the day and I suddenly realized that I wasn't haunted by my past trauma. It was finally in the past. What I believe happened was that it took a couple weeks for my sub-conscience to fully process all the therapy, feelings, etc. Whew!
Why aren't more therapists trained in Trauma Therapy and why aren't more of them using this? Not sure...maybe it's not the current pop psychology...I don't know. But think about giving this a chance. After more than 14 years of a wasted life, I haven't had depression for 2 years. I'm starting up a new business, and I'm in love again with my husband. Are all my problems gone? Of course not. But there are no more symptoms of my depression, anxiety, or PTSD. Amazing...
From my heart to yours...

Hi firstly can I just commend you on your bravery and courage in reporting that monster,I'm a campaigner myself for the NSPCC and know how these children suffer because of such individuals,your actions have prevented anymore abuse and whilst your still feeling repercussions what you've done is the right thing and you should be proud of yourself.
I'm so pleased your therapy helped and I do agree that it should be used on a larger scale,its certainly been of great benefit to me in the past.
Good luck with your new business and best wishes to your husband and yourself,you deserve to be happy!
Take care
JK

[AprilGram25]

You are an inspiration. I have done some trauma therapy but still struggle with some depression. Maybe need more therapy.

[Feedthewhitedog]

Incredibly inspiring. This truly gives me hope, and a firm belief in the basic human desire to fight against all odds. One day I hope to tell my story and inspire others as you have me. Thank you.